REMINISCEDD;

2011-09-20T04:11:00.002+08:00

had a busy busy busy week last week.

went for a corporate job interview,

and i was told to dress up in a very formal way,

so i decided to wear my old business wear,

the one i purchased last time for SIM's presentation.

and i realised how funny i look. ):

but i did tie up my hair after that lah, if not look so messy.

after which i did a banking event @ MBS with manhong,

but she actually knocked off earlier than me. >.<

and she has to wait extra 2 hours for me! Haha!

and she is so clever to call my dear down to acc her.

& we went for supper @ wan dou sek after that before heading home.

over the weekends i had a 3 days show,

for D&G Light Blue re-launched event.

i was kinda lucky to be assigned to town areas!

because this mean i can have lunch tgt with Diana & Chaiting!

but they are so mean to laugh at me when they saw me in the uniform. ):

Not that bad what, but everyone seems to claim it don't suit me.

oh well, too decent look is not my type. >.<

work from 12-8pm for fri, sat & sun,

and my leg suffers from a serious blister. ):

only after first day my leg became swollen & redness.

it's all wounded & scarring all over, so pity my leg lor! ):

and the pain is like .... killing me!

and my poor thumb is swollen until so fat and ugly!

the worst part is that, my little toe is swollen too!

till it is even bigger size than my forth toe!!!

what the hell lo!

and i walked 2 days like a robot (as describe by my colleagues),

but to me, use a simpler term, i'm PAIKA for 2 days!

even until now i can't walk properly still,

because whenever i try to walk properly,

i stretched my wounds & it really hurts.

dear 心痛 i walked till so 辛苦,

so as promised, he piggyback me! wahahaha!

diana kind enough to snap this down for us so all of us can have a good laugh!

and, my leg is so chor lo while he carry me lor,

lucky i changed down my uniform & wearing shorts instead.

my in-charge took a photograph for me and my colleague,

he is the spray boy & i'm the spray girl,

& sent to the management, i think is for reference or what lah.

because our job scope is to distribute free vials,

to people wearing in blue,

and before handling to them we must say,

"Because you're wearing in blue, we're giving you a free vials,

of D&G Light blue!" -.- damn lame one.

and also after that spray some light blue on them for them to try,

at the same time upsell the perfume to them!

throughout this event i met so many funny people lor.

first is one crazy fellow who PRETEND to be staff of taka,

and walks every level of taka, including of cos passing my booth.

and he claims that his father is the CEO of taka,

and he himself is the director. thats why he is patrolling taka,

to see anyone 吃蛇 or do anything wrong. -.-

and the most funny part is he keep purposely walked past my booth,

and his phone is not even ringing, he will PRETEND to pick up a call,

and starts speaking loudly regarding either,

(1) go take the CEO car & my car etc... (he don't even have license okay)

(2) the person arrive already uh? take him to my office etc...

(3) bring down my golf, i wait for you at lvl 1 etc...

freaking funny lah him, and he is a GAY lo,

keep pestering my spray boy for number. -.-

second is i met an ang moh,

i approached him and pass him a free vials from the front okay,

then he pretended to have a shock, and screamed! -.-

which really shocked me lah.

then after that he says, "nah, i'm just kidding." -.-

then i asked him if he wants me to spray on him to try the scent,

he actually lifted his shirt and ask me can he try on his navel! -.-!!!

looking at me looking stunned, then he again said,

"nah, i'm just kidding." -.- lmao lor.

third is, while seeing i carrying the free samples,

typical singaporean aunties will come over pretend to be interested,

and in the end ask me to give her the free vials,

so she can go home and try then consider to purchase. -.-

she's not even wearing blue & only approach us,

just eyeing on my hands that carries full of vials. typical lor.

we ended our 3 days event with a shot tgt with my in-charge,

its a sneaky shot as shooting is not allowed in taka,

for keeping as our memory. (:

and another reason why we taken photographs tgt is because,

the spray boy is interested in a girl at another counter,

so my in charge wanted to help him,

to let him have a reason to approach the girl and talk. -.-

because she is the one helping us taking this shot.

& so he can shun bian ask the girl for FB after that.

typical guys. -.-

i'm heading for bed already as dear will come over tml morning!

hopefully the time he really arrive is in the MORNING lo.

always LATE one. -.-

2011-09-12T15:45:00.003+08:00

went to PS ytd with him,

bought haagen-daz ice cream mooncake,

as per mummy's request.

she actually wanted durian mooncake,

but i strongly disagree,

cos my house refrigerator is already packed with durian now.

she bought 13 durians. -.-

due to waiting for my family to reach PS,

both of us just walk around PS,

and decided to watch a movie first,

while waiting for them to reach.

i booked a show via phone earlier in e morning,

but i didn't know what show is it, LOL.

Here's the trailer.

anyway my 吴尊 is the lead. <3

but well, still consider quite okay,

but i was freezing inside. ):

just nice when we watched finished the show,

my family reached PS,

so we got down to starhub to find them,

and my mum bought herself another ipad 2. -.-

& at the same time we changed our house internet's speed,

from 16mps to 50 mps.

hahas, i complained our house internet is too slow. lol.

after we got mum's ipad's screen protector done,

they left & we two head up to Nando's for dinner.

he ordered the hot peri peri & mine is mild,

and he went to try the extra hot sauce,

and whole face turn red. LOL.

i satisfied my craves for the chocolate cake.

i love their chocolate cake.

now look at this picture i feel like eating again. ):

but i guess these foods are way too heavy for me,

so when we decided to leave PS and head to J8,

to collect the mooncake,

on our way day i felt so damn dizzy,

and keep feel like vomitting.

i guess i'm too full,

so ended up he went down to collect,

& i rested in the car.

but too bad, J8's ran out of stock.

and i was feeling super bad,

so he sent me home. ):

And now, i'm waiting for him at home,

since morning, 11 plus am. ):

although he told me he will not come so early,

but i didn't expect him to delay so long.

so abit super unhappy now. #$%^&*

2011-09-08T22:37:00.003+08:00

open the composed page of my post,

stare at it for so long, didnt know what to type.

but still feel like blogging,

maybe because i also dono what am i feeling now,

so i didnt know what to say, what to type.

i guess i need either to sing or have a mj session soon.

if not i will go crazy. ):

initial planning on 14 Sep to go with the girls,

but it's called off again.

i really gt no str to plan anymore,

it's so difficult to accomodate everyone.

a bit disappointed yes, but what to do,

everyone gt their lives to lead.

my mood is bad today.

but i don't know why i'm moody.

maybe is just no mood, restless.

was watching several show these few days,

to kill my time as usual,

one of the show make me go crazy,

cant stop awhile not to watch,

but funshion is uploading so slow,

i've no choice but to wait,

make me even more restless. ):

2011-09-05T01:52:00.003+08:00

has been reading my old posts. -.-

some was so hilarious. omg. cant stop laughing.

LMAO.

i'll be gg out to bedok tml,

& head to sis shop @ havelock road.

so i have to sleep early tonight ltr. (:

oh yah, i'll be contactable agn from tml onwards,

as i'll be getting my precious line back.

OMG, can't believe i survived 2 mths w/o my line.

i was really unhappy & troubled over it though,

finally, mummy settled for me. <3

Life's filled with so many 烦恼 . ):

2011-09-04T03:29:00.006+08:00

Finally i'm done with the layout.

Ages since i've done this, almost can't figure out.

Changed the song to my current fav.

As usual, is my ah mei's song.

我最亲爱的

很想知道你近况　
我听人说还不如你对我讲　
经过那段遗憾　
请你放心　我变得更加坚强　
世界不管怎样荒凉　
爱过你就不怕孤单　

我最亲爱的　你过的怎么样　
没我的日子　你别来无恙　
依然亲爱的　我没让你失望　
让我亲一亲　像过去一样　

我想你一定喜欢　
现在的我学会了你最爱的开朗　
想起你的模样　
有什么错　还不能够被原谅　
世界不管怎样荒凉　
爱过你就不怕孤单　

我最亲爱的　你过的怎么样　
没我的日子　你别来无恙　
依然亲爱的　我没让你失望　
让我亲一亲　像朋友一样　

虽然离开了你的时间　
比一起还漫长　
我们总能补偿　
因为中间空白的时光　
如果还能分享　也是一种浪漫　
关系虽然不再一样　
关心却怎么能说断就断　

我最亲爱的　你过的怎么样　
没我的日子　你别来无恙　
依然亲爱的　我没让你失望　
让我亲一亲　像亲人一样　

我最亲爱的　你过的怎么样　
没我的日子　你别来无恙　
依然亲爱的　我没让你失望　
让我亲一亲　像过去一样

2011-09-03T23:09:00.003+08:00

we're supposed to go vivo for fd 5 today,

ended up we didn't go.

he bought me my cravings dinner.

bukit timah's chicken rice.

& we watched fd 5 over funshion.

but the video quality sucks. ):

but overall it still not bad,

just that don't watch it when you're having dinner,

like what we did,

cos it's damn grossed.

2011-09-02T23:54:00.000+08:00

i decided to come back blogging.

guess i'm too bored @ home. ):

met up with mich just now,

we had dinner @ nando's!

super miss her & finally had a good chat.

he came & fetch me home from ps.

and we had a big joke.

his car was stucked @ ps carpark. LOL.

his car too low, and e hump is too high.

thanks to 3 passerby who offered help.

the four of them struggled there for some time,

and finally manage to shift his car out.

ended up he had to reverse,

and exit from e entrance road.

i guess we can't park @ the rooftop,

when we head to ps the next time. LOL.

2011-03-04T08:52:00.002+08:00

花的特性

玫瑰（红色）－－我爱你

玫瑰（粉红）－－初恋

玫瑰（香槟）－－真心真意

玫瑰（白色）－－高贵

玫瑰（黄色）－－爱的开始

康乃馨－－母爱／温馨

火凤凰－－真心不变

百合花－－事业顺利

白百合－－圣洁／幸福

火百合－－浓烈爱火

黄百合－－爱慕

马蹄兰－－聪敏

毋忘我－－永志不忘

郁金香－－亲密

星花－－呵护备至

爱丽斯－－浪漫

向日葵－－仰慕

菊花－－长寿／高洁

红掌－－大展鸿图

剑兰－－步步高升

莲花－－纯洁／清高

兰花－－优雅

玫瑰：爱情、爱与美、容光焕发

玫瑰（红）：热情、热爱着您

玫瑰（粉红）：初恋、浪漫

玫瑰（白）：纯洁、高贵

玫瑰（黄）：胜利、道歉、父亲之花

玫瑰（捧花）：幸福之爱

剑兰：步步高升、生活美满、官运恒升

hj：健康、长寿、尊敬、文人的象征

白菊：哀思、纪念、怀念

勿忘我：不要忘我、永恒

满天星：关怀、万能配花

马蹄莲：高雅、脱俗、不凡

郁金香：爱的表白、荣誉、祝福永恒

郁金香（红）：爱的宣言、喜悦、热爱

郁金香（粉）：美人、热爱、幸福

郁金香（黄）：高贵、珍重、财富

郁金香（紫）：无尽的爱、最爱

郁金香（白）：纯情、纯洁

郁金香（双色）：美丽的你、喜相逢

百合：顺利、心想事成、祝福、高贵

百合(香水):：纯洁、婚礼的祝福、高贵

百合（白）：纯洁、庄严、心心相印

康乃馨：母亲我爱您、热情、真情

康乃馨（红）：相信你的爱

康乃馨（粉红）：热爱、亮丽

康乃馨(白)：吾爱永在、真情、纯洁

洋兰：贵族之花、生日之花

情人草：朦胧、浪漫

红掌：大展宏图

天堂鸟：大鹏展翅、贵宾之花

向日葵：爱慕、光辉、忠诚

非洲菊（扶郎花）：大方、热情

翠菊：追想、可靠的爱情、请相信我

玫瑰花数量的意思

1朵玫瑰代表－－我的心中只有你 ONLY YOU

2朵玫瑰代表－－这世界只有我俩

3朵玫瑰代表－－我爱你 I LOVE YOU

4朵玫瑰代表－－至死不渝

5朵玫瑰代表－－由衷欣赏

6朵玫瑰代表－－互敬互爱互谅

7朵玫瑰代表－－我偷偷地爱著你

8朵玫瑰代表－－感谢你的关怀扶持及鼓励

9朵玫瑰代表－－长久 ALWAYS

10朵玫瑰代表－－十全十美无懈可击

11朵玫瑰代表－－最爱只在乎你一人

12朵玫瑰代表－－对你的爱与日俱增

13朵玫瑰代表－－友谊长存

14朵玫瑰代表－－骄傲

15朵玫瑰代表－－对你感到歉意I'M SORRY

16朵玫瑰代表－－多变不安的爱情

17朵玫瑰代表－－绝望无可挽回的爱

18朵玫瑰代表－－真诚与坦白

19朵玫瑰代表－－忍耐与期待

20朵玫瑰代表－－我仅一颗赤诚的心

21朵玫瑰象徵－－真诚的爱

22朵玫瑰象徵－－祝你好运

25朵玫瑰象徵－－祝你

30朵玫瑰象徵－－信是有缘

36朵玫瑰象徵－－浪漫

40朵玫瑰象徵－－誓死不渝的爱情

50朵玫瑰象徵－－邂逅不期而遇

99朵玫瑰象徵－－天长地久 FOREVER

100朵玫瑰象徵－－百分之百的爱 100% LOVE

101朵玫瑰象徵－－最.最爱

108朵玫瑰象徵－－求婚

1朵你是我的唯一

2朵眼中世界只有我俩

3朵我爱你

4朵山盟海誓

5朵无怨无悔

6朵六六大顺

7朵喜相逢

8朵弥补、请原谅

9朵长相守永相随

10朵十全十美

11朵一心一意，最爱

12朵吉祥如意，圆满

13朵你是我暗恋的人

15朵守住你的人

16朵成长的喜悦

17朵钟情

19朵一生守候

20朵两情相悦

22朵双双对对，生生世世

24朵无时无刻想你

25朵没有忌意

26朵旧爱新欢

27朵爱妻

29朵爱到永远

30朵尽在不言中

33朵深情呼唤我爱你

36朵浪漫心情全因有你

44朵恒古不变的誓言

50朵这是无悔的爱

56朵吾爱

66朵细水长流

77朵相逢自是有缘

88朵用心祢补一切的错

99朵天长地久

100朵白头偕老

101朵你是我今生唯一的爱

108朵求婚

111朵无尽的爱

123朵爱情自由

144朵爱情一生一世

365朵天天想你

999朵天长地久，爱无休止

1000朵爱你一万年

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1. 玫瑰: 花色：红、粉、白、黄

赠送宜忌：一赠恋人、情人宜用红、粉色系列；二黄色代表道歉；三忌给朋友的女友和妻子送玫瑰；四忌给上司或异性随意送玫瑰。

2. 百合: 花色：金、粉、白

赠送宜忌：一赠恋人、情人宜用白色系列；二赠朋友宜用粉色系列；三赠长辈宜用金色系列；四贺喜宜用白色百合点缀红色玫瑰，取百年好合之意。

3. 郁金香: 花色：红、粉、白、黄、紫、金

赠送宜忌：一赠恋人、情人宜用紫色，红色，白色系列；二赠朋友宜用粉色系列；三赠长辈，艺术家宜用黄色系列；四贺喜宜用金色，取金郁（玉）良缘之意。

4. 康乃馨: 花色：红、粉、白

赠送宜忌：一赠母亲宜用红色，粉色系列；二赠朋友宜用粉色，白色系列；三赠长辈宜用红色系列，四忌送男性，以免误认为说他幼雅。

5. 马蹄莲: 花色：白、黄、红

赠送宜忌：一白色宜赠送年青朋友；二忌向一般异性朋友赠橙红色品种，以免引起误会；三宜在婚礼上做新娘的捧花；四忌送单枝。

6. 火鹤花: 花色：红、白、粉、潜绿

赠送宜忌：一宜赠送热情、豪爽的友人；二宜在婚礼、庆典等喜庆之日应用；三白色不宜送人；四忌送单枝，因"孤掌难鸣"。

7. 剑兰: 花色：红、粉、黄、白

赠送宜忌：一白色宜赠送年青朋友；二忌向一般异性朋友赠橙红色品种，以免引起误会；三宜在婚礼上做新娘的捧花；四忌送单枝。注册香港公司

8．向日葵: 花色：金黄、红、白

赠送宜忌：一可赠热恋中的男友；二可赠性格爽朗，大方和充满活力的好友；三赠艺术家宜用黄色品种；四为双子座和属牛的幸运之花。

9．满天星: 花色：白

赠送宜忌：一宜赠清雅高洁之士，赞誉其宁静致远的品格；二做玫瑰的衬材宜赠恋人；三配剑兰宜赠将毕业的同学，意为"大展鸿图"。四忌配水仙，意为"冷酷无情"。

10．勿忘我: 花色：紫、粉、蓝、白

以上资料都是转载的，并非原创...

2010-02-15T01:29:00.002+08:00

Valentine's day just passed,
it's the first time i experience tgt with someone i love.
but it seems to be the saddest i ever had.

Honeymoon periods are the best periods we'll reminisced.
You'll always say i never put u in the first place.
But when i trying to learn how to,
things start to change.
I dono why, but like i told you before,
i just felt that, you changes.

You'll never fail to make me smile after i frown.
You'll never hung up my call.
You'll always make me feel pampered even w/o sweet talks.
You'll ... ....
But now i feel like it's a you used to.

Baby, am i thinking too much or you really changes?
Or easier to say, are you tired of everything?
It has been 3 hours you hung my call,
without letting me finish my sentence,
& you never bother to even call or sms back..
& it's twice today you hung my call,
& do you know that you'll never did that before?

I try to show you my love for you for these few months,
trying to bring back the times of honeymoon by being extra sweet.
Do you know i've never know how to do that in the past?
but you always ruin, giving me the "i don't bother feeling."
Do you know i've always trying to plan things with you in,
but is it i'm forcing you to be in?

Honey, i'm really tired this time already,
I cannot go on maintain pretending everything is fine.
Third time, in this coming 10 months,
I cannot control my tears & sadness.
I need a break to vent out my feelings.

2009-12-11T16:56:00.002+08:00

gonna temporary "wind down" my blog.
i guess i don't have much time to blog them anyway.
i've been based @ raffles city now.
& i can't deny that city hall's fooood is like so unlimited.
i've been eating eating eating & eating.
it's damn busy @ raffles city & i don't like it.
i've a long work days to go till christmas!
just wondering how my christmas will be like before,
i enter my TWENTIES. ):
anyway, my supervisor michelle's a joker. -.-
she actually asked me to introduce a 2 weeks part time lover to her.
LMAO. & the rest there is still quite okayy.
except when we're busy, everyone turns nasty.
or else, it will be much better.
just that, all of us is so stressed over our pathetic sales now. ):

i need a shopping therapy soon.

& happy real belated 7th & the upcoming 8th. (:

2009-10-29T17:45:00.002+08:00

Happy belated 6th.

I LOVE MY WORK.
hahas. just simply cos i enjoy working there.
did my brow resurrection & eye liner.
& alot of other fun stuff happen during work.
esp my lost of way in orchard to bank in our outlet's cash.
their poor direction made me walk all the way,
from wheelock to tanglin mall, to trader's hotel. -.-
i walked at least for an hour.
but everyone had a good laugh after thats.

ytd i was assigned to raffles city to help out,
as one of their front desk is on MC,
and called to "borrow" me over as they cant handle the flow with 2 person.
so, i work half day @ focus (my outlet name, wheelock fifth floor),
and work half day @ raffles city.
i seriously agreed with Michelle that, their outlet is very joker.
lols. i just cant stop laughing over there.
all of them are like so di siao siao.
today's off anyway. (:

oh yeah. i met up with verna after work on one of the days back.
& bump onto desmond, sat down & have some chats.
& photos are up. quite alot.
includes my dinner cooking for the family (with his help of cos)
& my sushi making day. + kaiser's photo from sis.

HAHA. HE NEEDS A BRA ALREADY.

DINNER COOKING DAY:

JUST WOKE UP LOOK FROM AFTERNOON NAP:

i've yet to complete alot of things.
blog again soon!

2009-10-17T22:07:00.002+08:00

ahh. finally a off day cum long weekend!
have to get back to work on Tuesday.
i was being pulled by strip's school de therapist,
to be their model of Brazilian waxing.
that's like my first time doing it man.
actually it's not as scary as i thought.
the pain actually is tolerable.
& my trainer used my brow to do a demo,
to Mabel, my colleague.
so my brow now is in dark brown.
but its not permanent. last around 2-3 weeks.
and Tue, my eye is doing eye defining.
being another model again. LOL.
but, that's gonna be permanent.
hahaha! i gonna save time in my makeup already.
no need draw my eyeliner. (:
oh yah, i forget about lash curl too.
my trainer insist that no matter how hard i try
to curl my lashes, she always complain its not curl enough.
so, she gonna do a lash curl on my lashes too.
plus, she can tell my lashes are very stubborn.
so she wanna try out her new r&d.

anyways, as we're expanding,
so, we're very very very lacking of people.
so, my trainer asked me to see if any of my friends want to work!
s0 here are the details.

- no qualification needed.
- bilingual
- only full time positions
- sincere, passionate in beauty industry, serious worker
- female/male is okay
- no experiences is required
- willing to work on weekends & public holiday
- 5 days work week
- preferred 21 & above,
but below 21 will need to be able to take stress
- basic @ 1.3k - 1.4k + commission + incentives

basically the job is front desk.
but we're looking for people who are very vibrant,
very outgoing & is not shy.
whoever interested, can call me.
if i didnt pick up the call while i'm working,
drop me an sms. (:

and! helping a friend to post this:

Mayhem is Over X Intoxication @ Howl At The Moon
18th October 2009
9pm - 3am

On behalf of all our indian friends in Singapore, we at The Party Box thank them for
the Deepavali Holiday this 18th October 2009!

Following the resounding success that we had on the 15th October 2009 with our 7 Temptations,
(despite the intrusion of wild and false rumours)
we were sure you guys PARTIED UP WELL AND HARD with a grand total of 1,200 and counting bodies grinding to the
rap and scratch of MC SOF and DJ TOK@

In aid to organizer of INTOXICATION, lester pinto, who is being made to pay $2400 for after party damages.
part of the proceeds will be given to him! So come on guys, show your support!
Show some love!!!
As we, at The Party Box therefore declare
THE MAYHEM IS OVER!

This Deepavali Holiday, Howl At The Moon (the ex-Rouge) opens her prestigious and prestine doors
solely and exclusively to The Party Box.
With new interior renovation with state of the art lighting and sound system, residing just opposite Orchard Cine Leisure
You will find yourself ROCKING at the Party!

Party up alongside with us as we bring down the house rocking with the beats and the scratches of
MC SOF and DJ TOK (The Formidable Duo)!

With special appearances by Stellastory, Singapore's most up and coming boy band
(who has performed widely in Singapore, and is currently involved in a Tatler Gala Dinner)
Accompanying them are their entourage of ladies from The Newpaper New Face!

You wouldnt want to miss this night where
We, The Party Box party up with all you people!

THE MAYHEM IS OVER @ HOWL AT THE MOON
18TH OCTOBER 2009
9PM - 3AM

LET'S PARTY, GET WILD, COVER YOUR MY ASS... LIKE WE'RE FAMILY...

p/s: i wanna take photo with Mabel on Tuesday.
& those who call/sms me, i'll be slow in replying,
as, i can't have my phone with me while working.

2009-10-09T12:57:00.002+08:00

finally fulfilled the dates with ms baoyun(:
both of us agreed that dono when will be the next date!
ahh. i guess its gonna be a few months time again.
but our k-ing sessions end well on wed.
although its a last min decision by her. (:

ms baoyun meet up with her 3 friends,
whom these 3 guys sang very well hokkien song.
LOL.

went mahjong after that with manhong.
and alot things happen after that.
which until now, i'm still asking myself the same question.
"What is it that i want right now?."
but serious, i've no answer for myself too.
perhaps i really need to think about it.
which i don't feel like doing it right now.
cos my head super pain. until want burst like that.

manhong & i was chatting on msn right now.
and, a simple mj session date,
we need to use dream one. cos dono when will happen.
sighs. we two are so poor thing.

damn hungry now. go look for food le.
& i left 2 days to enjoy before starting work. ):

2009-09-30T18:19:00.002+08:00

i was reading a few other blog just now,
and i realise my whole house is "shaking".
i actually can feel my bed shaking quite vigorously.
at first i thought i was imagining things,
den i look over into my wardrobe,
my clothes are swaying, with the wardrobe closed.
i guess somewhere else in the world is having earthquakes agn.

Happy belated 5th btw.

i was too lazy to blog.
have been going out too often lately.
finally meetup with my miss baoyun.
aha. a last min decision to meet her for movie.
den after that we head over to prata house.
& hubby sebas all ordered the durian prata.
for heaven sake that's the first time i ever tried that.

went to mustafa the next day with hubby, sebas and his gf agn.
all of us had a hard time walking around.
it's way too big to find the things we wanted.
head over to geyland for supper.
actually planning go other places,
but all last min don't want go so sebas sent us home.

oh yah, i left approximately 1 weeks left before i start working.
the pay is quite attracting. (:
but i might not have time to blog, to use laptop,
or even to go out like last time already.
5 days work week with 2 weekdays off. -.-
which mean all my weekends is --- burnt.
but i guess worth it if i chiong and get over 2k with commission,
plus i'm only holding o lvl cert.

i forget everything that had happened already.
too long gap with no blogging.
except for one i definitely rmb,
that is i've been watching too many movies,
until i dono what else to watch already.
a few photos of the past weeks.

this is a fking ugly pic that i was going to bed.
& hubby wanna try his new camera i think.

at downstairs waiting for sebas to come.

a dinner with family which cost us $200 for 4 person,
but their sashimi is really very fresh.
& yes, that's the sushi cake i WANT.

over @ orchard central i think.
after my interviews.

sis mms me Kaiser's new pic the other day.
hahaha. so cute & i miss him.

this is the gigantic punch i saw with manhong the other day.
hahahhaha. we two girls went abit crazy in shoppings.

that's it. i wanna go find things do,
while hubby is OUTSIDE BILLIARD WITHOUT ME. x(
who ask me dowan wake up just now. :(

2009-09-06T05:24:00.002+08:00

arghh! i stayed up late again tonight. shit.
just too engrossed deleting msn contacts,
deleting my emails list contacts.
haven't been cleaning them up for years.
one shot deleted nearly 300 of them.

I've been repeating this song over & over again.
perhaps gone a lil mad over this song. hah.
simply simply love this song too much.
this song reminds me of one person.
& if i carefully listen to the song with lyrics,
i still wanna feel like crying~ touch to tears perhaps.

ahhh! manhong better faster finish her temporary work.
i wanna go out with her walk walk agn.
& miss baoyun's next week is forever not coming,
i miss her badly too.
& one more thing, i haven't been down to yishun for LONG TIME.
esp haven't meet alot of ppl at 200+ for ages. mmm.

2009-09-05T00:58:00.002+08:00

a plain post today.
simply because i got a funny story.
if not i won't intend to blog.

just now, around 8 9 plus pm,
my block had a chaos.
because of an indian guy, probably got mental prob.
according to my neighbours he live at 11th floor,
& i live at 12th btw.
he went around every unit, wearing only boxer,
& if the unit's door is locked, he'll do something funny outside.
& if the unit's door is unlocked, he'll just enter the house.
and in the end every resident came out & chase after him.

#1 he came to my house,
my maid was sitting in the living room,
i don't know what actions he did, but he scare my maid's wits out.

#2 he went to my neighbour house beside mine,
and called them, but they tot he come ask for money agn,
(which he did once & the auntie gave him $10)
so, they ignored him.

#3 he went to my gan mei's house, at 11th floor,
& coincidentally they didnt lock the door,
he enter the house, and did funny actions.
& my gan mei's father chased him out of the hus.

#4 he went to a malay's house at my storey,
they didnt lock the door either,
he just went inside, & funniest thing is,
the father initially tot is his child's friend,
endup all realise dono who the heck is him,
& the indian guy actually open their refrigerator,
& took a drink & drink.
when the father ask him what the heck he doing in the house,
he simply reply, drink water lor. LMAO.

he created chaos & every one came out and chased him,
i heard commotions so kpo & went out.
i saw him running along the corridors,
pushing everyone who tried to stop him,
and throwing pots of flower he saw on the way to first floor.
alot of men chased him & wanted to whack him i think.
he was screaming i don't care, i don't care.
& he run up & down the stairs until the police came.
& cuffed him & questioned him on the lift lobby at 5th floor.

first time in my life i see my block's residents so united.
LOL. dear chased after the guy also.
but didn't manage to catch the guy, cos the police already reached.
during the commotions, you can hear voices & see heads,
either on top of you or below you,
cos everyone came out to kpo. LOL.
i think the guy is damn stupid.
crazy jiu crazy, why go disturb every unit,
in the end let everyone chase. -.- so dumb.
i regretted nvr take hp out with me, if not i take photos of him.
den video down the whole commotions,
give newspaper still got money take. LOL.
this idea was suggested by my sister.
but why didnt she mentioned earlier. LOL.

2009-09-04T03:45:00.002+08:00

couldn't get into sleep, so got up to blog.
pardon me for not sms-ing you dear.
i just wanted some space alone right now.
mood's bad, very bad. don't know why.
i just simply dowan to hear any sms ring or whatsoever.

did delivery of products with manhong on tue.
the OL lady was gorgeous(:
well, we were half-drenched.
it was raining so heavily.
went to taka after that, cos she wanna do her wrk pass.
den we shop around at taka.
i bought stuffs for kaiser.
there's a baby fair there & everything is so interesting.
headed to amk with her.
went to collect contact lenses with my supplier.
& we actually managed to find the ulu ulu block.
haha, its not that difficult anyway,
we didnt lose our way!
went back to amk hub & we watched final destination 4.
i finally understood why is it M18.
cos is so damn gross!

Kaiser's photo session:

well, godmummy bought this gigantic bed for him.
& all of us couldn't stop laughing,
cos in 19 years of my life i've never seen so big one.

this one damn cute. his "zhao pai dong zuo" - zhao cai mao.

i was carrying him on hand cos he couldn't stop crying.
he stopped immediately after i carry him &
he give me this look! so cute right.

sis's making him burp after milk.
and i love his looks when he's like this.
damn cute one.

he got a lil fedup cos he wanted to slp,
& we keep disturbing him.

but after that, he still slept. -.-

& sleep until so soundly somemore. zzz

went out to meet another website consultant today, with manhong.
we meet the guy at taka again. LOL.
he's pretty professional.
we went shop shop as usual.
& chit chat alot things along the way.
bought diapers for kaiser as sis instructed.
& additionally, i bought one toy for him.
the one u pull got music one.
i was choosing between plastic-made & cotton-made.
in the end i got the cotton-made one.
but sis claims is fucking ex.
LOL. but i told her is okay lah. for kaiser nvm.
& i bought another pair of high heels.
& its all manhong's fault.
LOL. why ask me to go try.
& why the hell tell me try no need money.
cos out of 10 times i try, 9 times i end up buying.
but its worth the price, cos i love it so much.
$69.90 for a high heels, its rather cheap i think.

ah, god damn it. i've too much things on my mind right now.
so irritated, so fedup & so fucking tired BUT I CANT SLEEP.
wtf.

2009-08-31T14:32:00.002+08:00

The stuff i bought arrived from taiwan.
All is NRWZD's stuff.

Sis decided to try the strawberry on my head.
so i become white mouse. LOL.

imagine my head full of strawberry and walking around?
worst is my grandma forget bring passport out,
when she's going to go back to malaysia with my uncle.
AND MY SIS ASK ME DELIVER IT DOWN TO HER.
WITH MY HEAD LIKE THIS.
sway sway i bump onto neighbours while inside lift.
& she just use a very funny look keep looking at me. LOL.

This is my hair after several hours.
But sis says we should curl it tighter the next time,
apply moisturizer before curling &
dry it with hairdryer before taking down the strawberry.
Cos the curl is not distinctive enough.

well, we gonna have second attempt on wed.
cos my god mummy will come back to my house on tue night.
& also, they're going to order more stuff of NRWZD.

2009-08-26T14:06:00.002+08:00

Happy 4th & Happy valentines!
today's "qi xi jie", which is also the eastern valentine's.
coincidentally it's our 4th month.
so, double greetings!

i've yet to recover &
i guess the medicine makes me a lil pekcek.
my mood haven't been the best.
well, so i got nothing exciting to blog.

2009-08-23T20:41:00.003+08:00

the belated photos of KAISER when he is born.
his name is changed from Keegan to Kaiser.
because some "shi fu" count say cannot use Keegan. LOL.

these following is i taken of him few days ago.
one sunny afternoon, out of miracle,
he didnt sleep & i was playing with him.
he's too cute so i couldn't resist taking photos.
& a short video of him sucking the "nai zui".
hahas, he's less than 1 week old & he can suck already.
& the funny part is he suck few moments,
den will rest awhile, then continue sucking again.
sibei cute. & damn clever also.

these photos are taken today.
some by me & some by sis.
& sis is so funny today.
because sis have to eat those food that add wine one.
den ytd she tell mummy that can add more.
whole bottle add in also can.
so today mummy add 3/4 bottle of the wine.
end up she is drunk. LOL.
super funny. joke of the day man.

Kaiser was shitting, & he actually shoot his pee onto maid.
LOL. sis was warning her already.
because his that thing suddenly stand up.
which according to sis is he going to pee le.
& who knows after sis say le.
he really pee & shoot onto the maid. HAHA.
i was laughing like mad.

shuai right. haha, mummy claims he look super alike
to me when i was just born.
exactly the same look.
because i looked exactly like sis.
LOL. so he look alike to me too. (:

anyways, i'm down with a heavy flu.
i can't stop sneezing one.
nose like running tap but blocked totally.
my head super heavy & as if wanna burst le.
my throat hor, forever stuck & swollen.
and i'm like a dangerous species in the house.
everyone tell me don't pass to them.
and because of that, i've to wash my hands every 2 hours.
to make sure i won't pass to Kaiser.
& i think i pass it to hubby too.
cos he's in the same state as me right now.

& ytd went to the ghost month dinner over at daddy's workplace.
& i almost laugh till peng.
upon instructed by daddy helping me scream the price,
the ang moh there purposely disiao me.
keep raising with me.
end up everytime too high den i stop.
so in the end all he took the stuff & he have to pay.
LOL. funny sia ytd night.

ok lah. i wanna web cam with hubby awhile.
den take medicine go sleep le.
i cannot tahan myself keep in this state.

2009-08-19T19:45:00.002+08:00

Anyway, i just joined a new online survey platform,
whoever wanna earn extra cash can join too.
It's singapore based & the payout is real cash.
The link is as follows. (:
Click!

time for dinner! ciaos.

2009-08-19T17:53:00.003+08:00

babysitting is like so tiring.
i'm like exhausted to hell.
some belated pics & keegan's new pics.
still got more. i've yet to upload them.
the digital cam is with me like for 5 hrs already.
i just no strength to upload them.
maybe tml? i need some rest.

hubby's back to camp. but he's out tml. -.-
this is the belated pic of him,
he loves to scare vivi till her wit's gone.

but vivi's so ke lian this few days.
i feel so heartache.
as keegan might not get used to dogs,
so she's either locked up in toilet or in her small cage &
locked in kitchen. totally no freedom.
she's angry with me anyway.
she doesn't want to eat or drink,
even when i call her she ignore me.
so sad. i also have no choice right.

these pics are taken while our trip in cab to hospital.
the day before sis's discharge.
our first visit to keegan!

i edited this out of boredom.
when i was waiting for sis in hospital,
to come back from her lessons.
& hubby's sleeping. i too bored already.

here are Keegan's photo when taken in hospital.
one thing about him.
he's so lazy to open his right eyes.
always open one eye only.

& he took super long to finish his milk.
because he drink half way can fall asleep.
and is drink 3 min, sleep 1 min. -.-

that's all for today.
temporary i'm very busy babysitting.
until my back all ache-ing.
it's really not so easy to take care of him.

p/s:
we watched where got ghost? the night before sis discharge.
with daddy, mummy, godmummy at amk hub.
i prebooked the tickets online as usual.
the threatre is full anyways,
but managed to get back centre seats as i booked 9 hrs beforehand.
it's just damn funny only.
other den that, not scary at all.
but its not that bad like what the media has said.

2009-08-17T02:17:00.002+08:00

Congratulation to Sis!
The arrival of Keegan!
He's arrived on 16 August 2009, 2.51pm.
Weight: 2.99kg
Total Length: 50cm
Head Circumference: 33cm
damn cute. look super alike to my sis.
except mouth & the hairy part.
sis took almost 5 hrs to deliver him.
because he's too big size & sis don't have the strength.
more photos are in digital cam & i haven't get hold.
but here's some taken via handphone.

anyways, did a mass cleanup of my house,
with the help of sis's maid of cos.
to make sure that my room esp, & the house,
is clean from dust for baby to live in.

i was super super pissed off by Thomson Hospital.
well, after my sis give birth, it was just nice that,
the visting hours is over, by 1 hr.
& they dont let me in! i'm her blood related sister lea.
still don't let me in.
only allow spouse & parents to enter.
so me & hubby was left OUTSIDE, in the sun. zzz
heng mummy came out to pass us the car key.
& we waited in the car & i was like so bored,
so pissed, so irritated & super super dulan.
but did some camwhore-ing. cos i have nothing to do.

and after getting bored of camwhore-ing.
i use hp's photo DJ to edit photo.
& laugh at it. see! is it funny. LOL.

we went back in the night & again, after visiting hour.
but i insisted that i want pass drink to my sis,
cos she has nothing to drink & not allowed to drink plain water.
so the nurses & the guards let me in,
& told us to pass & leave immediately.
but who cares! me and hubby stayed in the room for awhile.
chit chat with my sis as she's alone.
until my jie fu come le den we leave.
i promised sis i'll be there tml afternoon to bring her drink,
& also see keegan & acc sis during visiting hour.
& mummy, daddy, godmummy, hubby & me,
we're planning to go watch where got ghost tml night!

sis will be discharge on tuesday,
& she'll be living 1 month in my house.
i'm incharge of: accompany her, babysitting & help out.
hubby says he's gonna have 1 month of freedom.
is that so? mmmms.
but yes, i gonna be busy for 1 month!
but worth it, cos keegan is so damn cute lah.
i raise rank le okay. now ah yi liao okay!

a video of baby i taken on saturday.
she's so stupid. really a dumb dog.
but still, she's my adore.

well, after so many years,
maybe coincidence or maybe really like what i thought,
its a curse.
i've never had a proper relationship that pass 4 mths.
right now, its like less than 10 days to our 4th mths.
i really very zhong shi this.
but well. alot of things, seems nice,
maybe not so nice. off to bed. abit moodless le.

2009-08-15T11:55:00.002+08:00

ahhh. i pronounced DEAD of my hp pavilion.
time for it to go into hospital again.
i really really hate windows vista alot.
2 mths back when i didnt select manual installation of automatic updates.
it went updating itself & when i was told to restart my laptop,
i did & i couldn't log on to desktop at all.
WHY? cos its never ending of configuring updates 3 of 3.
thus, i did a system restore with my restore point,
but i lost a 4 mths of data as i forget to create a restore point within e mths.
NOW? i change to manual update le.
i didnt see carefully what was being update.
but merely just select those seems important updates,
AND THEN AGAIN. my laptop after a restart,
it freezes at configuring updates 3 of 3 - 61%.
forever one lea. you leave there 3 days still the same.
i forced shutdown my laptop, went to system stuff.
choose last known configuration le. cannot.
i went to repair system, try to do system restore.
tried 3 different restore point, STILL FAIL.
wahlao. my data seems hopeless to recover already lo.
what can i do somemore uh. ahh. fedup.

luckily i still got my vaio.
if not at home no laptop nth to do i'll go crazy.
but, i regretted getting this laptop.
yah lah, i like it alot, very chio.
but damn small. see until like i want go blind le.
but still, better den nth to use now.
and yes, i'm super super dulan right now.
my mummy asked ppl to come service my house aircons.
and, i am at least 1 metre away le,
the person dono do what,
and spills oil out.
not only i kena oil, my bedsheet all kena,
my vaio also kena. wtf. its white color lea.
very heartache you know.
and most irritating is, after the oils stop spilling le,
he say one thing,
"all kena oil uh."
wahlao, still say somemore, ask fei hua right,
and he only take a ragged cloth,
very shui bian de wipe my floor &
leave the rest of the mess for me to clean up. WTF.
why i so sway this few days.

anyways, last few days i was having video calls with hubby.
and out of boredom and nothing better to do.
i snapshots him during each time of the call.
really is nothing better to do.
the pixel of the photos is damn small,
and the quality is like so so so bad.

he was just nice blinking and i snap.
so this looks as if he's sleeping. -.-

well. without my HP laptop.
basically i cant do anything at all.
cos my shop's data is all inside.
now i only wish miracle happen,
suddenly i can on it.
den i'll faster go create whole backup.
and reformat it. if not, i think that's the end le.
everything lost i dono how to start from scratch.

2009-08-13T04:04:00.002+08:00

wahlao. editing website makes me frustrated.
ahhh. i wanna go for a movie marathon man.
look at the amount of movies i wanna watch!
the results of hiding at home for almost everyday.
i wanna catch all movies ASAP irregardless of,
watching at cinema OR watch the DVD at home.
JUST AS SOON AS POSSIBLE MAN. arghh.

1) G.I. Joe: The Rise of Cobra

2) Up

3) 吓到笑 - Where got ghost?

4) 窃听风云 - Overheard

5) The Proposal - Your Signature Wedding

pretty irritated right now. arghh.

2009-08-06T07:34:00.002+08:00

wahahahaha.
i got a super cute bf,
who's asleep also can make me laugh whole night.
suddenly sit up, but actually he's asleep - or i think so.
snoring a lil while sitting up & lie back continue sleep.
and he did that like every 2 hrs through the night.
i was awake till now, and it's like the fifth time i saw.
how cute is that.

at least his unknowingly act cure a lil of my frustration.
frustrating & struggling with codes.
& worst with the monthly visit of my hated big aunt.
& bearing the irritating cramps & the feel of chopping ppl up,
just to ease my pain.

2009-08-05T03:44:00.004+08:00

i'm so proud of myself of uploading these photos.
244 pictures + dono how many videos.
my vietnam trip was fabulous. (:
let's start one by one.

did manicure & pedicure agn @ vietnam.
they're so good are drawing nail arts!
and, i never believed the price until i hear it.
i've 10 nail arts on finger,
2 3D toe nails, plus 10 toe nail art.
and my mummy & another girl did the same.
price of all these at a total of $35.
my goodness. if i lived there i want do every 4 days man.

my hotel. USD $55 per night.

the first stop of lunch when we put our things at hotel.

this is a salted papaya.

i cant belived uncle drank this.
its GRASS. mix with water = this.
taste so awful. but its his favourite. -.-

i've never successfully reached a place without a JAM.
and motors are everywhr like you see those crowds,
at chinatown during chinese newyear.
super exaggerating.

getting ready for dinner at a chinese restaurant.

he's super duper cute. future my baby also like that ok.

in a rented mini bus to my boat trip to mekong river.

uncle's wife. damn chio in real person.
vietnamese.

their son. i love his skin man.
his face i think better den my backside.

i was amused by the parking sign.

this is the most scary part.
the stairs right, NO STEPS ONE.
then my shoe's friction is like 80% gone le.
when i saw this, i was like,
dont tell me i got to climb this up.
i ended up almost fell into the water though.
too slippery. blame on the shoe.

the menu has almost NOTHING i dare to eat.
all weird weird animal.

thier "teh-peng". basically is just tea with ice. -.-
according to uncle's wife, vietnamese drank these every meal.

i went to see ppl slaughter chicken too.
although i seen my grandma do it before.
but, still. its like so bloooody.

this is banana wine. uncle's friend call it medicine.
cos he drinks it every moment, even doing nth.
and, its 29%. he drinks without ice, without mixer.
and somemore 24 hrs. power right.
to him, this bottle finishes within 30 min.

he's the one that treats banana wine as medicine.

uncle & his wife. the wind too big. so the pictures looks so not nice.

the diesel refilling station for boats.

our last stop. is to taste local fruits.
and we're like kings & queens.
ppl serve us fruits,
still got ppl perform for us to see. LOL.
although i didnt understand a single word they sang.
but i still admit they have good vocals.

oh well. my shopping in ONE day only.
this is only 1/4 or 1/5 of what i've bought in total.

the cig is $4 per WHOLE box. damn cheap.
i smoke 2 3 puff i throw. LOL.

my favourite. (:

the cargo of things we bought.
our luggage is like too full.

ok, i've no choice ok. mummy bought this,
& insist i wear and take photo.

our trip to vietnam's war history centre.
learnt about how they survive UNDERGROUND,
for nearing a century during war.
i tried going their tunnels, i walked less den 3m.
i cannot take it already.
we've to "squat-walk" all the way.

the holes is like damn small lah.
i doubt i can go in also.

this is a fake hill. for air to enter underground.

this one most amusing to me.
turn on side, its a trap.
turn the other side, its a table/chair.
how clever is it.

this one very scary. door trap.
i dont even dare to go near to take photo.

all their facilities are underground.
and link to one another via tunnels.
they've meeting rooms, hospital, military room,
cooking room, sleeping room, garment maker ... alot.

i ended my trip with a BANG!
haha. i tried on shooting with 5 real bullets with AK47.
it was quite heavy for me though.
i was shooting target board which is damn far.
mummy scare her wits out when i insist i wanna try.
LOL. if i nvr try i will regret for life.

their handmade shoes by using TIRES.
those car tires. most amazing part is the baby shoes.
its smaller than my palm lea.
i bought one pair back. wonder how they make it.

the only food they can grow underground.
they survive a century with this.

too bad i didnt manage to take the smoke.
its the kitchen smoke.
they let the smoke out 100m away from the actual place.
so to let the enemies waste their bombs here &
ended up no one for them to bomb.

the best part! MASSAGE. its really top to toe.
the girls even step onto my back.
and one moment i tot my bones gonna break by them.
LOL. but i really took my hats off them.
they used every part of their body to massage for us.
finger tips, finger, palm, elbow, knee, thigh, feet, toes,
ankle, small thigh, arms.
and they used hot stones on our back. super song.
as if like i went to heaven like that.
i went twice, and everytime when i finished massaging,
i'll tell my mum, i can go another 12 hr of shopping. LOL.

this is another vietnam clothings.
uncle's wife gave it to me.
she worn once only.
and still the same. i got no choice.
to change it and let mum take photo.
she even ask me to wear the hat. -.-
& all of them were teaching me how to pose
like a proper vietnamese.

OK. finished! if i brought additional memory card,
it could have been more. but thank goodness i didnt.
if not i dono i will edit till when.

i total spend 1.2k SGD & 100 USD alone on shopping.
hotel is at 300USD.
foods are not paid by us. as well as those rented bus fees.
i was so glad that we didnt exceed the luggage weight.
bought 3 sets of cosmetic on plane sales too.
it was another limited edition i couldn't resist to miss. xD

i actually spent all the cash we brought there.
including USD and SGD. how amazing. LOL.
i do miss the life there. at least there's no stress.
mummy says we'll be there agn, next year. (:
and she's planning our next trip to taiwan!
of cos, after my sis give birth. (:

2009-08-05T01:24:00.004+08:00

it's like a ridiculous long of not updating.
i was very very busy & not feeling well.
photos of hubby & me before i left for vietnam.

happy belated third month btw. (:
& thanks for the new engraved ring.

we went shopping at for new luggage too,
with daddy & mummy.

and also did my pedi & mani @ city square.

the manicure was gorgeous.
at vietnam, those massage girls keep praising it.
all its so cheap! plus mum's only SGD80. =D

alrights, i cant really remember what the heck has happen.
except for loss of my uncle after i return from vietnam shortly.
well, i still not yet totally recover from the sadness,
so i wouldn't go in details or i will end up crying agn.
i post up next a whole lot of 200+ photos from vietnam,
& several videos. it could have been more,
but my memory card actually went full. -.-

2009-07-07T21:40:00.003+08:00

i'm so happy today.
suddenly mood just turn good.
hah. abit crazy le i think.
anyway, who knows how to put shopping cart on webs uh.
i think i figuring till i want to go crazy already.
all the ftp, php, sql. none i understand. -.-
oh well. i'm still better @ html.
see! a new header plus few changes on the sidebar.

i seriously need a someone to join me at BS.
i've so much things to do & i seems nvr able to finish them!
i still got tons of measurements of clothings haven't take.
tons of photographs not taken.
not to mention editing & uploading them.
plus advertising daily.
finding more stocks.
and repeat everything all over agn.
it's really not so easy to handle all.
luckily i no need delivery the stuffs,
no need make the apparels out.
all i've to do is think & design.

okays, enough of complaining,
& back to editing photographs.

2009-07-06T12:46:00.004+08:00

i'm freaking tired right now.
had such a weekend.
anyways, friday finally got to play billiard,
after such a long long time.

it was quite a surprise from dear.
i was using laptop, & yingko called him.
then i heard him asking whether wanna go billiard.
i didnt expect it though.
anyways, we went safra with yingko's wife & daughter & ahlong.
their daughter, en qi is super cute man.
she's so happy when we enter the carpark.
all of sudden she scream,
"yeah, we going play billiard!"
-.- i assume next time she's gonna be like me,
crazy over billiard.
anyways, while we were playing billiard,
she's so busy running this table & another table.
(they open two tables)
and keep going around piak ppl's backside. LOL.

got home & out of the blue,
i decided to clear my wardrobe.
& i realise how much clothes i've, brand new & with tag somemore.
its such a bad habit of me buying & buying.
& i actually clear out damn alot of clothes
& my wardrobe is still so full.
and well, i'm gonna sell all those away.
some are brand new,
some worn less than 3 times,
some just throw to flea market which i'm planning for BS.
they are too too many.

& yes, men's clothings arrive last week.
pretty satisfied with the quality,
& brought in few instocks too.
i'm just a lil lazy today to do any work.

and oh yes, vivi's irritating me the other day,
when i was using my laptop in the living room.
i got fed up & put her upside down on my lap.
& she got freaked out and stayed quiet.
i'm mean. i know. (:

oh btw, happy 18th to manhong. loves(:

2009-06-26T13:33:00.001+08:00

Happy 2nd hubby.
- we're going strong still,
& will be for the future. -

a week of busy watching series drama at hm with dear.
& also confirm my flight already.
i guess thailand & taiwan have no fate with me yet.
the serious spreading of h1n1 in these two areas,
caused mum to change location of where we're travelling.
oh well. nevermind. i'm going to one part of vietnam,
cant rmb the exact name, but i heard its a pretty nice place,
a very like genting place. & she said there's plenty to shop there.
i was very shocked to hear from her that,
the currency we're going to use over there is USD.
i seems so like an idiot who doesn't know this till now. -.-

went to watch transformers 2 with dear.
we booked the tickets 6 hrs before hand.
initially i've a tot of booking extra 2 more tickets,
for mum & dad, but i couldn't get anymore couple seats.
all fully booked. so too bad.
we reached to collect the tickets 1 hr before,
& dear got me the anklet i've been wanting to buy. thanks (:
the show was quite nice, pretty amusing i would say.
but i think cathay is super exaggerating.
they actually opened 5 threatres to screen this show.
& all fully sold out. luckily we booked beforehand.

i dont mind watching it again though. hahas.

tml's baoyun's birthday, happy 20th girl.(:
this coming sat we're going to celebrate manhong's bday.
i heard they are going to ubin.
i hope possible to switch to sunday, i dowan to miss the fun with them.
as i already promised sis to help her out on sat,
during her roadshow. she's pregnant so cant possibly overwork.
& her shop's roadshow response always have been very good.
oh well, let's see how den.

i want to watch ice age next.
dear, understand?. LOL. (:

2009-06-18T14:59:00.002+08:00

wanting to blog for a long time,
didnt upload photos thus i was lazy!
since i've nth better to do now,
so i decided not to be so lazy & get it done. (:

went out with dear last friday.
because he was so keen to eat,
bbq stingray, bbq sotong & etc etc.
thus i accompanied him & went to have those for dinner.
initially we're suppose to meet up with his friends,
kokyan & alls over at suntec to go for pc show,
but my fault again, i dee-lee-thr-lee,
and made them waited there for hours.
hah, & tot of changed of plan & meet them for dinner,
who knows, when he called them there already having their dinner,
over @ marina. LOL. he wanted to have steamboat you see.
thus, he decided dont run so far to look for them,
& told them we not going down
& we went out on our own.

before dinner, we went to get my screen protector first,
it was super amusing.
because i used to have those pre-protector,
that came along with the new phone,
and that protector conveniently covered the speaker.
thus, i used to complain to him,
why this phone so soft one,
i cannot hear his voice sometimes over the phone.
until that protector was remove,
than i made a call to xian, telling him testing phone,
(of cos kena from him till very jialat)
den i look up to him & said,
"eh, 很大声勒."
& it's like so idiotic of me. -.-

headed home after that,
& mummy was like so excited over her newly made clothes,
& told me to put it on.
well, it was MY DESIGN OKAY.
yah lah, although is you make out one. zzz
but she was super amusing & make it according to her size,
& ask me to put it on.
i look like a bloody out of size idiot with stripes on. -.-
but after that she measures properly of my body already,
the next day she brought home a new one,
which look definitely 10 times better.

on sunday, i went to the pc show with mum & dad,
gt a few buys.
my vaio's pouch (a better one), screen protector,
my portable hard drive 500gb, usb bluetooth for my photoprinter,
a portable laptop cooler, hard drive pouch.

mum got herself a funny looking made in singapore hp.
which seems to look fantastic with lots of function,
but sadly, no bluetooth.
& she also got a SOS phone for grandma,
supposingly the only thing the phone can do is,
call, sms & sos button that automatically send sms & calls
to preset number upon emergency.
that phone look super "cute",
but i wouldn't want one for myself, mark my words.
after we got our stuff,
its kind of too late to go looking for dad's stuff.
he wanted to buy the romba robot which automatically
cleans the whole house's floors at preset timing,
the one which i've been manually googling for him.
i received a email from the supplier the other day,
& told me that they have a booth over at pc show,
and i'm entitled a discounted price,
bet its cos i've been way too irritating to them. hah.
but sadly, we couldn't find the exact booth with limited time.
dad was a bit "not-wanting-to-give-up",
so, we acc him walked all over agn although ppl's packing up. -.-
end up he was convinced that we would look for it some other time.
went to have steamboat after that at lavender.
simply because we drove past before heading to pc show,
& i said that steamboat is rather nice,
& dad wants to try it so we ended up having dinner thr.
it's too bad dear wasn't there.
because the SEAFOOD IS LIKE DAMN FUCKING BIG SIZE.
i was super shock when i see it.
but mum promise to come agn perhaps next week with dear. (:

2009-06-10T00:49:00.005+08:00

another week's over. (:
went to sembawang park bbq & celebrated bday
with xiuyi, wendy, weini, amelia, jermyn. (:
its a annual gathering for us.
celebrated xiuyi's, amelia's & my bday tgt as usual.
jermyn got us a super super cute cake!
the moment i saw it i was like, "okay, bye, i go le."
& took the cake & run off. LOL.
dear went with me, & i know he's super bored.
cos he kept sitting alone @ one side & play hp game.
i was as usual, the latest to reach. =D
& somemore we walked almost the whole sbw park,
to find the pit, ---> pit 14.
never never book that pit please. its super ulu. zzz
was half dead when i finally walked till there.

we went over to occ to play pool after that.
after super much effort,
i managed to persuade dear to come along.
he really dont like to go occ + play pool.
or i should say, watch me play pool. LOL.
but i was really delighted when he finally say,
"ok lah, go lah."
i actually jump up & hug & kiss him & say i love you, dear.
LOL. cos i really want to go very much.
& seeing him dowan to go,
i dowan to leave him alone but at the same time,
i dowan to leave my sisters all,
cos we seldom got the time to meetup like this.
but, he for the sake of me being happy,
he agreed to go although he's relunctant. (:

CUTE RIGHT! LOL! ON TOP IS ALL COFFEE CREAM OKAY!

look @ amelia's face + my middle finger. LOL.

why took in how ugly i squat with the cake. ZZZ.

amelia.

amelia, xiuyi.

wahahaha. i want to swallow it. ahhhhhh....!

guess what i wish for. (:

well, have been busy over the week,
selecting, calculating, uploading, designing & advertising.
i came out with almost 4 5 designs already.
& i'm like so happy and 很有成就感. hah.
so proud of myself lea. LOL.
oh! mummy gave me extra surprises for bday.
she got me w705 too.
but because she re-contract & got the phone at starhub,
& starhub only got silver in color,
she topup additional $30 & exchange a red one for me,
over at dear's friend's hp shop. THANKS!

you cant imagine how happy i am.
i've been waiting so long for this phone.
and without fail will take a second look when i pass by shops.
and, now! i can see it everyday, and its MINE! HAHAHA.
& she got me a laptop bag for my vaio too(:
somemore that night i never come home,
i was over at dear's house sleep after bbq.
she left it on my bed somemore. thanks mummy. (:

but its abit too big lah. as in the width. but nvm. (:

so happy lah. my bday this year,
although nvr celebrate much, but i'm very contented.
got him, got what i want, & got the rest with me. (:
i dont have much more to ask for in life already. ((:
with what i have now, i dont need anything, anyone else.

2009-06-02T10:55:00.005+08:00

Friday
went to some ulu ulu interview with manhong.

lols, decided to go for fun,

as i was super bored at home everyday.

well, the chances of us working there is slim,

cos we've other more big work assignment coming up!

meet up with dear @ amk hub,

went to collect my lg ice-cream.

& we head back to sunplaza to get some stuff.

and out of some jokes with manhong,

she actually went to buy e eeyore for me as bday present.

hahas, thanks sister, (: it has been 10 years running. (:

and, we were shopping @ popular for BS's admin stuff.

and i actually bought up to fifty dollars at there. -.-

after which dear meet up with yanfa & left to yishun,

to buy some stuff before coming back to find us.

and manhong and i went to proceed with our photoshootings.

it's like super tiring lah.

change up change down, pose here pose there. LOL.

but finally manage to get the shootings done till late night.

some snaps taken that night before i was going to sleep.
super tired.

HAHA. he dont like to take photo.

the jialat-ness of my makeup became after shooting,

he hand my bday present to me. (:

this is the promise he gave me.

tired.

Saturday

Happy Birthday to daddy!
went out dinner @ no name restaurant,
with daddy, mummy, sister, sis-in-law,
bro, bro's gf & dear to celebrate dad's bday on sat.
well, they order alot of my favorite food,
lobster appetizer, veggies, deer meats,
chili crab, fish, etc.
i was very amused by the lobster head,
& dear told me to bring home. -.-
no name restaurant made a mistake &
deliver the deer meat twice,
LOL. and ended up they say give as a bday treat to dad.
and didnt calculate the extra dish's fees.
i was way to happy eating my fabulous dinner,
so i didnt bother to take any photographs. hah.

after that, all of us headed home,
to see what sis has bought for her going to be born son,
and, i was fucking shock.
cos, i foresee the amount of baby's stuff,
that is gonna fill up my whole room. oh well.
sis-in-law & dear went to the lift to smoke,
while me, my sis, & mum was trying to fix up the baby's bed.
it was hell, i didnt realise how heavy is the bed until that day.
was half dead sitting on the floor after that. x(
my dad was super amusing & in very good mood.
after sis & sis-in-law left,
he suddenly suggest to go mustafa walk walk,
in the middle of the night. -.-
well, its his bday, so we didnt want to spoil his mood & went.
the four of us, dad, mum, dear & me,
actually shop @ mustafa till 3am plus. LOL.

Sunday

was woken super early by mummy,

i wonder why she don't need to sleep 8 hours,

because previous night we slept at 4 5 plus!

and she woke me up at 12pm.

dear actually wanna let me sleep even longer,

but oh well, she came into my room

and talk super loud, as if wont wake me up. -.-

i got up to prepare,

and went for haircut with mummy,
while dad & dear fixing e new fan in my room,

because i always sleep with no aircon on,

door close & window close. LOL.

so mummy afraid that i will suffocate.

and decided to buy a new wall fan for me.

head to dear's house for lunch with his mum at 3 plus,

and i tell you, the food is like so delicious.

lols! perhaps like what dear says,

"i'm hungry like a wolf"

hahas, dad & mum pick us up at around 5pm,

head to junction 8 to buy my new vaio.

and i'm super super super angry.

you know uhs, sony vaio pocket pc,

got two different speed right,

the lower speed one only has white & black,

while the higher speed one has all 4 colors.

& out of so much persuasion,

mummy finally agrees to buy the higher speed one,

which cost $1,699, four hundred more lah.
cos i wanted in red one you see.

i persuade super super long lea,

and mum says since its my bday so she 随便 you see.

tmd, whole singapore retail outlet & warehouse,

actually went out of stock.

the promoter was like, sorry sorry. really no stock le.

i was scolding sony vaio at the shop though.

& i think the store manager see how fed up i was,

and actually gave me alot of gifts with my purchase,

and says its for my bday treat. -.-

well, ended up i got the white one,

and since i'm getting the white one,

i told my mum to take the lower speed one,

as i'm using two laptops, i dont need another so good one.

since the red one is oos, what for buying $1.699 one right?.

ok lah, white also quite nice.

well, i saw on laptop bag, for the vaio one,

and its like so small, & pure leather made,

and you know cost how much anot! $179!

what the heck. i wanted to buy one lor,

but i see the price le, really not worth the price.

cos it doesn't have any specials design or whatsoever,

and simply is the brand name that causes the price. -.-

and i ended up didnt buy it although i quite like the bag.

next stop we went was to singapore expo hall,

because dad wanted to buy the nougats for me,

one of australia specialties,

and who knows,

we ended up with 2 3 bags on each other's hand.

hahas, i think this week i can have all sorts of junk food.

all mine!!

& dear was super shocked to see how my family shops.

cos, it's way too scary already.

buying non-stop one. even my dad's like that.

hahas, i inherit my parents' genes thats why so spendthrift one ok.

mum & dad went for dinner,

and dear and i went find one corner to take a puff.

LOL. he has been tolerating for like hours for that puff.

and we went home with them to help them carry the bags up,

and dear & i went back yishun to find the rest.

anyway, yanfa's super irritating,

cos he claims that its not my bday yet,

and still got about 1 hour more when we reach yishun,

so he decided to keep disturbing me all the way till 12am.

because after 12am, 我最大. haha, & he cant disturb already.

half way, dear left with yanfa, say go smoke.

cos yanfa's gf dont let him smoke in front of her,

so the two always throw two of us aside,

& left to find one place to smoke.

and who knows he went to get me a cake.

i told him dont buy cake already.

so he didnt have chance to buy a proper cake.

and in the middle of the night,

there's only one place that got sell cake,

which is mcdonald's. LOL. super cute ah the two.

but i was super touched when i saw the cake. (:

although i told him lots of time dont waste money on cake.

cos i've alot of cakes every year already!

he still went to get one, small slice in middle of the night. -.-

but thanks dear. really very touch by your 心意.

we cab home after sebas all left.

and i had my supper with my cake, alot other junk food.

plus, drinking the 20 years old cordon bleu,

dad's collection. LOL. its mine already anyway.

wahaha, mine mine mine!

thanks baby(:

Monday

its the actual day of my bday.

i didnt want to celebrate anyway,

so two of us was over @my house to have some peace.

who knows yanfa called & asked us to go to amk.

hahas, i was lazy so we didnt go.

and dear very funny, my bday itself,

still ask me to cook lunch for him.

super baddie. but i was very very lazy.

hahas, so shui bian cook some simple dish for him.

well, he finishes them all. (:

vivi's irritating enough to keep nipping my toe,
while i was cooking. so i got fedup and put her up there.
because she dont dare to jump down.
没有用的胆小狗.

and mum came home to cook dinner for us.

& dear rush back to camp at 9 plus.

& me and mum had a talk for hours.

and i actually went bed at 12 plus.

maybe too tired out for previous days,

every day sleep 5 6 hours.

and, this is all for my week. (:

i'm very happy this year,

although i didnt organise to celebrate my bday.

but i was very very happy.

thanks mummy for the big big present.

thanks dear for everything.

thanks for those who sms me to wish me.

esp verna laogong at exact 12am.

and 20 plus other which i lazy to name.

thanks for those who wishes me through facebook,

friendster, and msn. plus a few others who called.

thanks alls. for the effort.
be it i know you in person anot. (:

and this year i've a lil surprise.

some i didnt contact for like mths & yrs,

they actually rmb my bday. qihan didi, thanks esp(:

and a few others. way too many to name all. (:
谢谢你们。爱死你们了。。

had a few outstanding present uhs,

you know who are you. HAHA. i'm very unreasonable plus greedy.

i dont care. by june you guys have to pass me. i'm waiting! =D

new items(:

manhong snaps my baby out of boredom.

imagine the mess right now in my room with so many things.

p/s: dear claims that i've a 好命狗.
& mum says because i'm a 好命女,
so my dog is 好命狗. what logic right!

okay, i've alot things to do already. BS's stuff have to be up today.
ciaos.

2009-05-27T08:26:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday, VIVI baby(:

you've been with me for like, 11 mths already.
i'm so so so in love with you, my baby. (:

watched night at the museum 2 with dear, yanfa & his gf.

we watched it over @ amk hub last friday night.
it's like so fucking funny and 5 thumbs up to the show.
anyways luckily i used dear's visa to book the tickets online,
cos when we reached there the queue was like ... ...
and really, i dont mind watching it all over agn.

dear stayed over @ my house on fri night & sat night.
as we're going into m'sia with my parents on sunday morning.
mum bought daddy C905 as birthday present,
and we went over to dad's workplace as they want to "baibai",
before we head back to msia.
and i didnt help them when they "baibai",
and happily took my camera and snap snap snap.
cos daddy took my baobei camera away for weeks,
as he needed it for some photo taking of cars.
and finally, i got it back as mum bought him a better camera phone.

oh, birthday's nearing, 5 more days.
but, i guess i wont be doing much celebrations.
but dear told me he got me my present,
wrapped with a very nice purple black wrappings,
and nvr forget to remind me to open the present nicely. -.-
and also, i think mum's gonna get me my phones.
why i say phones, cos there're two! =D
well, she wanted ice-cream for herself,
so i shun bian take and use lo. LOL.
and i'm still phyco-ing hard for her to get me my vaio.
i think she'll, cos she said she asked a friend of hers,
cos can get the laptop at a cheaper rate.
of cos, she got vaio for me is cos,
i agreed to lend her my current laptop to watch drama series.
wahaha, cos i got ppstream on my laptop,
and she's super overwhelmed over it. clever right. =D
well, that's about all for the week. shall update soon. (:

2009-05-26T12:43:00.002+08:00

laogong, happy first month. (:
i love you. . .

by the way, my baby's birthday is tml.
and, 6 more days to mine.
and oh yah, mum told me my chi bday,
coincidentally falls on the same day as my eng bday this year.
but too bad dear is on standby & couldn't celebrate with me.
but he promise to give me a early celebration.
had a busy week last week.
shall update later as i'm rushing out now.

2009-05-18T06:14:00.006+08:00

i'm super...

can't stop

&

damn damn flu.

sooo much i hope u just gone in split seconds.

anyways, watched angels & demons with dear last week.

well, i think this show was great.
beginning i totally dont understand what's it about.
but nearing to end, i somehow understood the show.
however, dear claims he don't understand the show at all.
-.- anyways, it's such a sacrifice for him,
to accompany me watch such show,
cos he dont really like. but yes, i appreciate it okay.
here's the trailer anyways.

5 Ways To Say I Love You

If you were the moon
And I was the sun
We'd be an eclipse
-Together as one.

Words can't explain
How I feel about you
So I'll just say "I love you"
And hope you love me, too.

You are my life, my blood
The only one for me,
Without you in my life
Were would I be?

When you are not around
It's never the same
There is no love, no joy
Just heartbreaking pain

So if we're close together
Or far apart, I'll never forget
How you touched my heart.

counting down:
8 more days.
9 more days.
14 more days.

2009-05-11T06:00:00.001+08:00

Happy Mother's Day!
got mum her favourite not-so-sweet chocolate cake,
well, it's my favourite too. lmao.
i never forget, but ask me tell you sweet sweet things by words,
i cant. cos i dono how lea.
but whatever is it, i didn't forget lah please.

okay, it's 6am now, and i gonna blog,
then bathe, then go find my dear in dreamland.
been very very busy, watching this show,

this is the 精彩片花. i downloaded to my laptop,
and uploaded to my own youtube. (:

this is introduced by dear to watch,
cos he says i love billiard so much. -.-
well, i must say, my billiard improved alot le okay.
its getting more and more accurate. =D
never waste my time training uhs.
and especially after watching 桌球天王，
i'm more and more addicted to billiard.
and almost everytime also pester him to bring me go play.
i think i gonna drive him crazy, soon.

anyways, we managed to find our way down to my baby's petshop,
and bought her beloved fooooood,
and head back to yishun to meet xian, sebas, ... ... etc.
and on our way back,
i was way to boring and start snapping around,
using his handphone,
and he was super 100% relunctant to take any photograph. x(
so, i ended up snapping myself,
and keep making alot of noise cos,
the sun ray was just so nice right on my face. -.-

well, that's the best pic i managed to took of him.

anyways, i cannot stand sebas calling himself,
DKS = Drift King Sebas
so, we decided to call him,
JKS = Joker King Sebas
LOL. i had a big laugh whole day, and really had so much fun.
and these few days,
dear kept me accompany whole day,
and friday night, sat night,
keep me accompany cos mum & dad all went back m'sia.
and both of us was like finding all kinds of show to watch,
on ppstream, LOL. i even watched tom & jerry. -.-
but whatever, enjoyment time gonna be over soon.
cos, i wanna start to work full time,
as he's gonna be busy till NDP,
especially after my birthday. oh well.
i need to find something to keep me busy with. mmms.

counting down:
15 days more(:
16 days more(:
21 days more(:

2009-05-04T03:36:00.000+08:00

wish me goodluck for interview tml. (:
meeting up with shi en & e rest @ 2pm tml.
heading down to interview together. =D

anyways, finally xian's tagging is over!
party time already okay. few more days of curfew only.
acc him down to cut it, i didnt put aeroplane okay.
although i slept only 4 hours,
i told pekmo to come my house wake me up. =D
anyway, he managed to pull me out of the bed.
have been running around everywhere and enjoying.
and, Happy 25th birthday! -dedicated to my dear(:

this photo was taken on 30th april though.

the photos are with his friend @ his phone. x(
and i don't know when can i get them.
but we did have a great time @ amber 21.
anyway, this post was meant to be on 2nd of May.
and, thanks again to manhong, my ten years sister.
she acc me down to town to pick present for so long.
and i'm like so picky and choose here choose there.
heng he love it. (: didnt wasted our efforts uhs?.

i did my promise to you & got you what you want.
i did my promise to you & sang birthday song at exact 12am.
i did my promise to you to stop alot of things.
make sure you did what you've promised me okay.

anyways, the next birthday will be my baby's! (:
she's like botak now and i really want to dye her fur purple.
ahhh, imagine her being totally purple,
won't it be like so amusing. LOL.
27th May, i'll die also find a dog cake for her to play. LOL.

and next coming birthday will be MINE!
intially i didnt wanted to celebrate this year at all.
but, shall see how, anyways, 30th May,
definitely will be either @ powerhouse or amber 21.
den shall see how it goes on 1st june itself. (:

i already have my birthday wishlist planned.
and a few items, some people promise to get them for me!
*hint to ah xian esp*

1) Sony Vaio Pocket Style PC.

2) W705 Passionate Red.

3) LG Ice Cream Snow White.

4) My all time FAV - Chanel Chance.

5) Burberry Brit Sheer Light Pink.

6) DKNY Be Delicious Apple Green.

7) Purple Mahjong. (glittered best)

8) Chanel Inimitable Mascara Black.

9) Purple Gucci Wallet (seasonal one, can get is miracle)

10) Mu-ee Purple Cigarette Box (mine spoil, x( )

13) My waist tattoo complete.
14) MORE MORE MORE Clothes!
15) The grp of people whom i wish to be there.
(you know who you are. (: )

a random pic, bump onto his nephew the other day.
and he's like super super super cute.
i was fcking ugly that day due to my eyes.
it's like so so so pain that day.
and it still hurts now though. x(

anyways, i love poker face. =D

OH YAH. AMBER 21 IS STILL HIRING.
DETAILS AT POST BELOW. TAKE NOTE. (:

ok, bedtime. need to wake up by 11am. ciaos.

2009-04-30T03:40:00.000+08:00

sorry for not updating for so so long.
i didnt have time to use com!
but anyways, as usual, i've been out all the while.
reach home = sleep & wake up = go out.
i should be sleeping now,
as i've alot of plans in this coming days,
but, i just cant sleep. don't know why too.
my mood totally reverts back,
and i'm happy with my life right now.
interviews on monday morning and evening.
and bless me i get in okays. (:

ANYWAY, there's a job opportunities open right now.
Details as follows:
1) Strictly girls only.
2) Preferred 18 & above, but if looks are mature, is negotiable.
3) Min salary - $10 per hour, if performance well, negotiable.
4) Strictly part timers only, few work days per week.
5) Working time - late evening to early midnight.
6) CLEAN pub area.
7) Preferred with experience, but if none, negotiable.
8) Working Place - Boat Quay, Amber 21.
9) Singaporeans/PR only.
10) Must be able to drink at least a little.
Interested applicants, CALL 94394229 and look for Huiwen for more details.
Or, 1st of May 2009 night, come straight down to amber 21,
call 94394229 and walk-in for interview.

here are the photos of my past few day's life.

WITH SWEETHEART! (:

hahas, sweetheart anyhow snap this. =D

PARTYWORLD.

more photos on the way, i'm lazy for the day. =D

2009-04-23T02:12:00.002+08:00

have been to busy going out.
and yes! i'm most probably going to work already.
full time, @ laneiage.
still waiting for confirmation. (:
been meeting xian, jeremy, sebas, verna etc.
spent tons and tons of money. x(
but nvrmind, gonna start full time work already.
wont be updating so often as i'll be like,
going out more den 18 hrs a day.
and anyways, i'm still sick!!
the doctor's medicine is like so weak.
he changed so many medicine for me ler,
and, i still feeling so damn sick.
as in, no more fever, yes.
but, my cough is like getting worst everyday.
although is better than that day,
at least i cough no more blood.
but, i'm like so irritated cos,
i cant stop coughing for every 5 min.
mum says if this persist,
she's bringing me to specialist to do full body checkup.
ahh, i think i harm my body so much already. x(

intended to go clubbing today,
but last min, got somethings on so was cancelled.
i miss clubbing so so so so much.
ahh, give me 2 more weeks,
i wanna back to my full time clubber position. ((:
and yes, sorry to sky, cos i've something on today,
so cant join you guys rounding today,
another time okay. i promise. (:
i've not sleep more than 4 hrs a day for so many days.
and i'm like so fucking tired already.
time to sleep, and breakfast tml @ 7am with xian & sebas.
nights people. update with more photos next time.
now, no time already. i left less than 4 hours of sleep.
dang.

2009-04-18T19:09:00.002+08:00

until now, the words i heard, the words i see,
are all still ringing in my head.
i reflected on myself already,
and i think, you should too. cos you're worst.
self-centered, unreasonable, arrogance.
you said i lie to you?. all my promises is a lie?.
think about what you yourself has did then.
then think why i do this in return.
dont say i used them as excuses,
but, think, if you haven't do this,
will everything happen?. i dont need your pity.
i just wonder, are you too self-centered and selfish that,
you don't even sit down and reflect why things turn out this way?.
fault is not solely on me, is on both of us.

yes, i used a wrong way to revenge,
and i regretted it cos i feels sorry to myself, and not to you.
i'm not sad over the outcome anymore,
nor do i angry over what you've did.
i'm just glad that, it's all finally over.
what's gonna happen to you in future,
is not going to be my concern anymore.
anyway, whether you gonna forgive me anot,
it's not going to bothers me much.
i do not need your forgivement to live on.
because i don't feel that i owe you anything already.
whatever i can do, i've already did.

i used my real heart to love you, but u didnt.
i knew from e start you took me as a subsitute of her,
and unreasonably demanded me to change this and that.
i choose to think that you're doing that for my own good.
and not because you want me to change into her.
you always want to win. and i always give in to you.
and this time, because i didn't, and you throw a fuss out of it.
i really think that, you're not worth what i've did for you.
because, anybody outside can treat me better than you.
yes, i learnt alot from you. and i did have a period of happiness.
but it's just like fireworks you know.
after the sparks are down, everything is a blank.
no visuals, no sound, no feeling, nothing.
and that's the end.

2009-04-18T02:25:00.002+08:00

Sorry.
whoever i made them so worried just now.
dont worry, i wont suicide again le.
it's just i felt i'm sorry to myself,
and i choose to avoid the reality.

been once to nearing to death, i learnt alot.
and, finally understand alot of things i used not to.
what is totally no strength to get up,
what is totally lose control of hands & legs,
and what is totally brain blank and black out,
i'm really very stupid, and i'm so guilty.

finally, i understand why ppl always say that i'm:
naive, silly, and stubborn.
too naive to think that everyone has a good side.
too silly to believe whatever ppl tell me.
too stubborn to bother to listen to ppl's advice.

i've wake up from my "dreams" of everything,
all the wonderful thoughts of the world,
fantastic futures, nice-to-hear words, are meaningless.
and to me now, i'm like a real cold blood person,
someone who totally has no feelings at all.
i dont feel sad, dont feel angry, dont feel pain, at all.
until today then i realise who cares the most about me.
and who will never ask for any return and do anything for me.

xian, verna: without you two, i'm lying in coffin now.
i've never regret knowing you two in my life.
i can lose everything in the world, but never you two.
and those who blasted my phone with calls & smses,
or even just show me a slight concern, i'll rmb in my heart.
and i swear, i won't let you all down again.

for those who has been asking me what happened,
i'm far too tired to repeat already.
just a piece of advice,
dont commit suicide like how i do.
i thought drinking whole bottle of cough syrup,
with fifty sixty pills of different type,
will be the easiest to die peacefully.
but it is not, i suffer through the process.
i harm my throat, my gastric, my brain.

and i used to thought overdose of panadol won't hurt.
yes, but not with insomnia pills,
and whatever kind of pills i can find in my house.
until now i still feel the after effect of consuming those,
although they forced me to vomit some of what i've ate.
but the harm already caused when i swallow everything.
this incident gave me a very big lesson,
at the same time, it totally changes me.

2009-04-14T13:07:00.002+08:00

Singer: Britney Spears
Song Name: Circus

There's only two types of people in the world
The ones that entertain, and the ones that observe
Well baby I'm a put on a show kind of girl
Don't like the backseat, gotta be first (oh oh)

I'm like the ringleader
I call the shots (call the shots)
I'm a firecracker
I make it hot
When I put on a show
I feel the adrenaline moving through my veins
Spotlight on me and I'm ready to break

I'm like a performer
The dance floor is my stage
Better be ready
Hope that you feel the same

All eyes on me I'm in the center of the ring
Just like a circus (uh, uh,uh, uh-huh)
When I crack that whip everybody gonna trip
Just like a circus (uh, uh,uh, uh-huh)
Don't stand there watching me
Follow me, show me what you can do
Everybody let go we can make a dance floor
Just like a circus (uh, uh,uh, uh-huh)

There's only two types of guys out there
The ones that can hang with me, and the ones that are scared
So baby I hope that you came prepared
I run a tight ship, so beware

I'm like the ringleader
I call the shots (call the shots)
I'm a firecracker
I make it hot
When I put on a show
I feel the adrenaline moving through my veins
Spotlight on me and I'm ready to break

I'm like a performer
The dance floor is my stage
Better be ready
Hope that you feel the same

All eyes on me I'm in the center of the ring
Just like a circus (uh, uh,uh, uh-huh)
When I crack that whip everybody gonna trip
Just like a circus (uh, uh,uh, uh-huh)
Don't stand there watching me
Follow me, show me what you can do
Everybody let go we can make a dance floor
Just like a circus (uh, uh,uh, uh-huh)

Let's go

(uh, uh,uh, uh-huh)
Let me see what you can do
(uh, uh,uh, uh-huh)
I'm running this (like-like-like-like a circus) Yeah
Like a what? (like-like-like-like a circus)

All eyes on me I'm in the center of the ring
Just like a circus (uh, uh,uh, uh-huh)
When I crack that whip everybody gonna trip
Just like a circus (uh, uh,uh, uh-huh)
Don't stand there watching me
Follow me, show me what you can do
Everybody let go we can make a dance floor
Just like a circus (uh, uh,uh, uh-huh)

All eyes on me I'm in the center of the ring
Just like a circus (uh, uh,uh, uh-huh)
When I crack that whip everybody gonna trip
Just like a circus (uh, uh,uh, uh-huh)
Don't stand there watching me
Follow me, show me what you can do
Everybody let go we can make a dance floor
Just like a circus (uh, uh,uh, uh-huh)

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sick. very sick, perhaps due to lack of sleep.
went to see the doc at private clinic,
and i waited from 1 plus pm to 4pm.
is like, wtf. private clinic still let me wait so long.
i already cough until as if lungs wanna come out already.
and cough till got blood lea. wtf.
but i was so surprised when the doc told me that,
my temperature was 37.9.
cos, i didnt know my temperature was like so high.
he merely told me to keep drinking more plain water,
in case my temperature shoots up.
but, i drank at least 1.2 litres everyday le lea. -.-
anyways, i hate eating medicine.

went amk to meet yonghan,
den head back to yishun to meet xian & billy.
rest awhile @ billy's house, and took pictures.

and i was so amused by his new born puppies.
took a video of them and disturb them for quite some time.

then head over to xian's house to take my stuff.
and i cab home, eat tons of stupid medicine.
and i slept. but cant have a peaceful sleep cos i keep waking up.
i'm like still so drowsy still perhaps of the medicine.

2009-04-12T22:42:00.000+08:00

Singer: Pink
Song Name: Sober

I don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest
Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don't wanna be that call at 4 o'clock in the morning
'Cos I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home

Aahh the sun is blinding
I stayed up again
Oohh, I am finding
That's not the way I want my story to end

I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like protection
How do I feel this good Sober?

I don't wanna be the girl who has to fill the silence
Cryin scares me cause it screams the truth
Please don't tell me that we had that conversation
I won't remember, save your breath, 'cos what's the use?

Aahh, the night/dawn is calling?
And it whispers to me softly come to/and play
Aahh, I am falling
And If I let myself go I'm the only one to blame

I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
How do I feel this good sober?
[ Sober lyrics from http://www.lyricsyoulove.com/ ]

I'm coming down, coming down, coming down
Spinning 'round, spinning 'round, spinning 'round
Looking for myself - SOBER [x2]

When it's good, then it's good, it's so good till it goes bad
Till you're trying to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry, never again
Broken down in agony just tryna find a fit

Ooo Oooo

I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
How do I feel this good sober

OOooo OOoo

No Pain
Inside
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
How do I feel this good sober?

Will I ever feel this good sober?
Tell me, No no no no no pain
How do i feel this good sober?

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i finally knew why he called.
cos he called agn later in the day just now.
we had a long chat for 2 hrs after so long.
i'm like so contradicting right now.

you said you still love me.
you asked me to wait for you.
you told me to listen to what you've told me.
you asked me to believe in you no matter what happens.
you asked me to give you more time.
you said you did everything for a reason.
you asked me to be understanding of you.
you said you'll be back when everything is settled.
you said in mean while you'll call/sms me everyday.
you said you'll explain everything properly when you're back.
you said so many other things till i'm confused.

should i believe everything you've said or not.
2 months. it's not gonna be easy you know.
yet you're blaming me now for meeting guys.
when you yourself went to meet her.
let me think about what to do then. i'm really lost.

2009-04-12T14:37:00.000+08:00

okay, finally i'm willing to blog after online for so long.
friday, meetup with xiaolong & de ming at yishun.
lunch, den go around walk walk, talk talk,
and wait for lisa & company to arrive.
and headed to town.
saw so many ppl, caiyang, yibing, sev, adrain & alex.
initially wanted watch 9+ de show,

but the seats are like, first row?.
so we bought 11.20 one instead.
it's like so kua zhang, cos we bought the tix at 7pm.
billard awhile till 9 plus,
then we head downstairs to meet xiaolong's friend.
i was so amused by his full-body tattoo & vampire teeth.
LOL. his tattoo got one spot is a smiley-face. -.-
make me so excited when i see it. LOL. i know it's stupid.
but i cannot understand why ppl will put smiley face on their body,
until he explain to me why. LOL. super funny.

head back to yishun at 1 plus am.
wait for jiesheng, dexter & 2 of his cousins,
and meanwhile i used xiaolong's phone to zilian,
until his phone went flat. LOL.

i was lying gracefully on the sofa @ deming's house.

dono why so poor quality.

den head over to my house for mahjong session.
we mj for 8 hours straight from 4am - 12pm.
wanted to go school one,
but last min went down to amk.
after that went watch movie, again, at hub.

and i cab home to zzz.
a miracle i slept for more than 12 hours,
without waking up for even once,
despite when i wake up i got 10+ miss calls.

haven't been sleeping so soundly without any stress.
without any worries of i will miss his call.
or having any worries that anything bad might happen.
anyway i did miss his call ytd while i sleep.
was quite surprise to see his name appear on my phone agn.
after so many thing happen, i dono why he still call me for.
maybe call to tell me very bad words agn. dono for what.
nan dao i haven't hear enough?.
but whatever lah, what i can do, what i can say,
i already did, and i'll do what i've said.
i wont regret, so i hope u wont regret lo.
but, i want to make you regret.
you know what i'm talking anyway.
i already forgotten what you've told me to bear in mind.
cos you cause this to happen. shit you.

2009-04-10T13:01:00.003+08:00

back to school as promised ytd.
accounts is so bored that,
i cant stop complaining to everyone that i'm bored.
i cant stop thinking i want to eat something.
i cant stop doing stuff to entertain myself.
so i ended up,
buying alot snacks to eat.
taking feli's phone and anyhow snap.
watching movie with feli's psp.
doing crazy stuff in the class n laugh at myself. -.-

the very lame lecturer.

snacks.

bo liao.

feli.

nth better to do.

DO SOME COMPARISON.
first pic is taken by me.
second pic taken by feli.
I GOT SO NO SKILL IN TAKING PIC MEH.
she claims that taking pic need some talent,
AND I DON'T HAVE THEM.
COS MY HANDS KEEP SHAKING. ZZZ

went to meet yonghan for awhile at amk.
den i head back to yishun n meet xiaolong & de ming.
joke, talk, laugh, play.
de ming meetup with two girls,
whom i felt is so interesting,
and xiaolong sent me home after thats.
was too tired that i fell asleep right after i lie on my bed.
haven't been sleeping for two days.
thus, i put 3 aeroplanes to gregory, dexter, ka wi.
gregory: no more next time okay.
dexter: thanks for the understanding, mj soon.
ka wi: i too tired already lah.

totally agree when i saw this. god damn it.
but forget it. with so much concern from friends,
i will be alright.

2009-04-09T05:41:00.002+08:00

i decided to charge my phone n on it agn.
but i've been trying to stop myself to send unnecessary msges.
and forbid myself to make the unnecessary calls.
well, i couldn't accept the reason,
but it's still the fact or what isn't it.

i made a mental note not to think so much.
so decided to go meet yonghan for breakfast ltr.
and go back to sch as usual already.
you don't care don't you?.
since u already said you cant restrict me.

oh whatever.

2009-04-08T14:18:00.002+08:00

i've completed my one month plus' update.
i've yet to upload them into fs or fb.
abit no more extra energy or mood to do it.
xian & jeremy sent me my lunch just now.
great thanks. much appreciated brothers.
i'm like so sleepy right now.
haven't been sleeping for like dono how many hours le.
i somehow cant get into sleep peacefully.
but anyways, since my laptop is back,
i'm gonna keep my blog alive agn.

forget to mention, i met up with verna-laogong too,
over the 1 month plus.
been night life all the way.
alot fun, alot memories, alot laughters.
i wonder whether will it be the same agn.
i'm still waiting for one call.
one definite call to conclude everything.
so i would know what i should do next.
i've been missing school for fifth day already.
and today is like only the 7th lecture.
SIM staff called me and i told them the reason le.
holy bloody shit.

and oh yeah, i think my asthma is like acting up agn.
cos i just dont feel so right in my breathing.
ahh. let me die man. fuck.

2009-04-08T14:07:00.003+08:00

Vivi baby

pics taken before i went to shave her botak.

Meetups with Xian

he snaps this. while i'm eating.

Backdated ZILIANS

can i smile agn like this?.

MISC

acrylic extensions with bling bling & 3D.

more blings.

the stupid blue black i have when i fell down.
after watching coming soon with alex.

Sch's Start

feli's cap.

my darlings always.

2009-04-08T14:07:00.000+08:00

Henderson Wave

weilun snaps all.

Golden Mount

his fault of ugly pic.

Singapore River

fantastic moment.

Other Moments

848 breakfast.

on his baby.

2009-04-08T13:44:00.002+08:00

East Coast Park Trip

"corner-ing"

"wheelie"

two lame ass.

weilun, pointing middle finger.

baby.

censored by weilun's hand.

everything seems so happy.
i dont mind suffering or whatsoever.
cos i'm NOT.
but you're gone like this.

2009-04-08T11:34:00.001+08:00

K-ing session (23/03)

weilun, larry & eve.

kelvin & baoyun.

kelvin, baoyun & weilun.

us. with larry's face cut off.

act shuai. LOL.

weilun (JIEJIE) & eve.

You're the first thing I think of
each morning when I rise.
You're the last thing I think of
each night when I close my eyes.
You're in each thought I have
and every breath I take.
My feelings are growing stronger
with every move I make.
I want to prove I love you
But that's the hardest part.
So, I'm giving all I have to give
to you... I give my heart.

2009-04-08T10:55:00.003+08:00

Backdated photos from photographers.

2009-04-08T10:53:00.001+08:00

it has been ages since i blog.
just got my dummy laptop back.
and i've tons to update.
i'll let pictures do the talking,
as i don't have the mood to talk so much right now.
upload them in awhile.

2009-03-05T07:28:00.003+08:00

a short post before i go bathe and off to school.
1) my laptop is mad right now,
graphic driver is not working properly,
and i do not know when i can use and when i cant.
2) MPO paper suck. i spotted questions,
but, i cant rmb when i was taking the exam. -.-
3) i seriously need a new phone.
i think my W705 is launched already. ahhh!
4)eng paper later, hope luck drop from sky & so i can pass.
XOXO.

2009-03-04T06:33:00.003+08:00

i should be mugging i know.
a short blog post & i'll end my computer session.
been out dinner, chilling, supper, & laughing session,
with baoyun, xueting, yiksian, kelvin, weilun.
home @ 3 plus after supper @ lavender. (:
had a fun day & a good laugh plus nonsensing. LOL.
let's have more of this session again after friday.

2009-03-02T23:11:00.002+08:00

"kope" this pics over @ feli's blog.
ask her send me, she gonna take ages.
few more pics on avelyn darling's birthday.

I'm SO PROUD of myself.
why?. cos, i do house chores today!

<the person nt me okay, nt so fat.>

i spent whole afternoon doing it. wahhaha!

AND....

BUT!

<not my finger okay!>

i'm super upset. cos, my precious nails are broken!
ahhhh, you cannot imagine how sad i am.
only sim babes can understand. x(
S-H-I-T lah. culprit, housechores. ahhh!

and, exams is less than 36 hours away.
going back to mugging, stressed up already.

2009-03-01T07:13:00.002+08:00

haven't been blogging cos i was too busy.
mugging drives me crazy. just felt i dont study enough.
not well-prepared. and goodness,
even samael can tell i'm sick right now.
and, i still didn't care & eaten things i shouldn't eat,
for one great example, black-pepper beef rice,
and tons of chocolate just now. -.-

ahh, having slight fever with flu & e most hated cough. zzz
wonders how sick i'll be after i endure past exam. x(

samael mug with me just now,
and yiksian, kelvin, yilin & larry,
came down at almost 4am just now.
kept me accompany while i study, thanks(:
and two jokes of the day.
first, i saw a most stupid bird in the world,
fly & bang right onto glass door and fell down hard.
second, SIM stands for, singapore institute of mahjong.
cos, i'm a typical mahjong queen! hahahahah.

watched 2 pathetic movies, only TWO, recently.

a pretty nice movie, plus funny.
not much effects, but their actions are fantastic.
and yes, the appetising foods looks delicious.
and a thumbs up figure of vanness!
but one complain, it seems there's alot parts
of the movie being cut off. i dono, just not so link up.
got the trailer over the net.

second show i've watched is the outlander.

at first i thought what ulu show is this.
but after i watched, i really kind of love this show.
spectacular visual feast battle between the aliens and vikings,
and quite a sad ending. good show although.
and here's the trailer.

there's so much more movies i wanna catch!
perhaps after my dumb exam next week.
and, i need to start working right after exam.
ahhh, i got so many emotion i dono how to vent out. zzz

2009-02-25T18:26:00.006+08:00

HOLY SHIT.
yiksian sent me this video just now.
i almost laugh till peng. LMAO.

it's like so fcuking funny man. omg,
i couldn't stop laughing at all. LMAO.
ref link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kBKQqQj67tc

rotted at home due to the big big rain.
should have gone to mug with samael, oh well, regrets.
nvrmind, i shall start mugging tml.
goodness, it's less than 1 week to exam.

love me without fear,
trust me without wondering,
love me without restriction,
want me without demand,
accept me how am i.

2009-02-24T20:57:00.003+08:00

this post is meant be on 22nd feb,
but i was too busy.

Happy 19th Avelyn Darling!

specially, decorated.

ten dimensions(:

there're more pics. upload agn when i got hold of them.

my mind went blank & i suddenly dono what to blog.
sunday night supper with samael & friends at thomson.
monday night, watched underworld with junjie,
supper & head to upper selatar with his friends.
& i cant rmb what else already.
just wanna work soon. & yes, mood has been down.

2009-02-21T04:40:00.003+08:00

I'M HOME! actually ages ago. LOL.
went dinner + seeing doctor with jiajie.
then off to 504C to get one of avelyn's presents.
and, i got lost in sembawang.
LOL. i didnt know whr's 504C.
and i actually walked one big big round.
and end up it was just beside 505 at the road side. -.-
went to MOS to look for samael as usual,
then study study, yiksian picked me up @ sunplaza.
initially wanted go causeway watch look for a star,
but i dono how SOMEONE check timing,
and we reached there, there's NO SHOW showing at 0020. -.-
lame. and we enter the carpark and left within 15 mins,
someone got to pay $1.10 for carpark fees. LOL. -.-

then head over to i think is called A&Z, supper,
with two of his friends, then we head over to dam.
and saw aprilia gang (my fav). one word, chio. =D
i counted, more than 15 bikes over there,

and they actually have a van + lorry together with them.
power right. haha. den when we're driving back,
i didnt put seat belt, and he was speeding,
to catch up with his friend in front, he made a turn,
and we saw a police check right after the turn.
what the heck, and i almost lai bu ji pull the seatbelt,
and the police saw me pulling seatbelt lors,
but, i think he chose to close one eye and let us go.

tml's a long day to go. & so,

goodnights ppl.

P/S: pls tag ppl, i've hit rates up everyday,
but i don't see much tag. x(

2009-02-19T23:29:00.000+08:00

I'M SO FCUKING FEDUP. ZZZ
i hate the most when i'm studying and ppl call & disturb.
it pisses me off to max, esp asking some not impt things.

anyways, been out studying with samael again.
meetup with ah yan for lunch at 12 plus pm,
then samael reached at around 1 plus pm.
study all the way till 10pm.
his friends came too, and one of them helped me alot. (:
thanks uh, good luck to you guy's paper tml.
must jiayou okays. (:
& bump onto yuwen and friends again,
and thanks + sorry to trouble you guys regards some qns.
though with so many ppl teaching,
i'm still not so clear with some question. zzz
maybe last resort is go for revision class next week.
and bomb the lecturers with alot question.

in between, i took few breaks and went to smoke with yiksian,
whom is so free to "sneak" out from work. LOL.
mummy drove by to pick me up @ sunplaza,
cos i was way too lazy to walk home. HAHA.
packed home a super giant size of dinner,
2 burgers + whipped potato + coke. too hungry already.
anyway, i've finished doing all business maths's past yr papers, twice.
zzz, do until dono want to use what to practise already.
perhaps redo whole lecture notes' question,
and all textbook exercises.
i guess i'm going crazy doing already.
i'm fcuking tired now, off to bed.
XOXO.

2009-02-18T01:09:00.002+08:00

some backdated photos,
it's valentine's day in school. (:

btw, my eyes damn small cos didnt sleep at all
for the previous night. zzz. was damn tired.

the two tie-ing plaits for each other. tiff & ave.

anyways, went out to study with samael.
haha, until today then i know i spell his name wrongly.
supposingly to meet @ 12pm.
but, i woke up at 12pm. LOL. ended up,
i reached there at 2 plus pm.
studied that fcuking business maths,
drove us crazy. really almost gone bonkers. zzzz.

and half way while we're mugging,
there's this guy came to our table,
put a piece of paper written 4 digit on it.
and he start praying to us, den doing alot funny actions,
and mumbling to ask us give him 2 dollar to eat.
and den, we choose to ignore him already,
he actually went to another table,
and did the same things, and KNEEL DOWN!
LOL. we two was like trying to video down.
and couldn't get a clear view,
so snap a pic out from the messy video.
SUPER FUNNY.

and, he went around every tables. -.-

by the way, i snap another pic of my lovely daughter.

my mummy claims she look like a sheep in this photo.
cute right?. of cos, she's my baby. x3s

2009-02-17T03:03:00.002+08:00

i seriously agree with this saying that,
people have to go through things,
before they will grow up.
i still have tons to learn. holy shit.

i was very touched by my mummy today.
she knows that my w910i is spoilt.
despite the fact that i didnt request for a new phone,
she said this,

"you go see which phone is cheap one,
i buy for you since yours is spoilt, or,
if you've any phone in mind,
if it's too ex, i'll help to pay some for you."

for those who don't really know what's going on,
you wouldn't understand how touched i was.
but i just kept quiet and continue with my dinner though.

but as usual, there's only one phone that will ever attract me,
that is --- sony ericsson walkman series.
and, this is the one that i've in mind, W705
but it's not launch yet, supposingly to my prediction,
it'll be out next month. (:

it's way too chio to resist man.
i guess, i'm way in love with ericsson's phone.
but, i'll reconsider whether i'm getting it a not.
of cos, i've my reasons why.

had a lil quarrels with kenny, i know it's my fault.
so, i'm really sorry okay.
i've way too many things troubling me right now.

meeting up with samuel tml, he was xiaoming's friend,
but now, my best maths consultant.
hahas, i don't know trouble him how many times already.
and yes, we're meeting up to study tml.
his exam is on friday anyway. so, shun bian revision you see.

currently waiting for one last call from peiyi darling.
gonna talk for awhile, and off to bed.

and, last before i end the post,

to the person who thinks he knows everything.
don't act as if you're a big fuck bossing ppl around.
listen, YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING.
don't tell ppl what to do, or judge ppl mere like this.

SO, PLEASE,

& just

ZZZZZZ.

2009-02-16T03:16:00.003+08:00

Happy Valentine's!

anyway, i must blog this out.
avelyn darling & tiffany gave us each a valentine's breakfast on sat.
hahas. so sweet right, cannot jealous. LOL.
i head home after submiting the last project of the term.
slept from 11.30am - 4.40pm. to get myself at least replenish for the day.
meet up with melvin, and things got cropped up abit last min.
which delays the plan, but well, is okay.
head to i-dono-where-is-it's pub, meet up with his friends.
had a few cups of drink, and listen to someone's singing,
who claims will make me melt. LOL.
and we two left to head to vivo to carry on with valentine's plan.
dinner, and then we drove into sentosa.
and quotes from him of the day in,
"aiyarhs, just go only, lost than say." LMAO.
in between what has happen inside sentosa is too long winded.
i cut short and ended my valentine's day in sentosa after sunrise.
and, we decided to skip breakfast and head home to zzz.

backdated photos for project meeting in school,
avelyn finally pass me the thumbdrive after so long.

the two trying to wake us for the day.

benny(:

candid.

opps, half of my face and avelyn's gone.

loves.

someone busy on the phone and dowan to take photos with us.

triple loves to my darlings.

my hand + feli's face + benny's face.

tiff, feli, benny.

tiff & feli's mean enough to cover us with FINGERS.

nth better to do.

anyways, for those who concern, i'm feeling much better already.
it's just family problems i've. it's not the usual quarrels i've with parents.
it's a prob which the whole family got to face.
and on top of that my mummy's cancer is suspect to be back.
so is like double, triple bad news one shot to me.
so all of the sudden i couldn't take the truth. thus, broke down.
but nvm, i'm trying to work out a solution to solve already.
and, i've 3 person who knew what's going on to stand by me.
so, i wont be defeated by destiny so easily. no worries. (:

anyways, next BIG event is Ave-darl's BIRTHDAY.
and then will be final examination. will be MIA soon after her birthday.
and, melvin told me something which really enlightened me.
letting go a person, doesn't mean to let go of their memories.
memories is there forever.
so i think, i'm glad that i've memories which i don't want to let go.
thinking of you again will means refreshing my memories.
letting go of you, but not letting go our memories together.

2009-02-13T04:49:00.002+08:00

i really really cant get to sleep man.
with so many things inside my head, i just cant sleep.
i really want to vent out and rave right now.
who can i look for to talk?.
who's shoulder is available for me?.
i really feel like crying again right now.
i really broke down just now.

my mind is repeatedly with mummy's word.
what should i do?. or i should say, what can i do?.
i really dono, why is this so suddenly.
my exam is coming, and why this thing happen!
ahhhhh! bad things always happen after family meeting.

DAMN IT.

it has been so good all along, WHY NOW!!!!!!!
all of the sudden, i feel so lost, and dono what to do.
it reminds me of what happen last year during nov.
the last time which i really broke down and cry.
just that, this time round, i cried for different things.

I DON'T LIKE THIS FEELING MAN.

for one moment, my mind only flashes one person.
one person whom i used to rely on,
one person whom i hug and cry to slp on.
one person whom really understands me in and out.
one person whom i really regret of letting go.
if only, he's back with me right now.
with him, i know i can pull through this.
but i know, he won't come back to me.
he won't know how much i miss him.

repeatedly i've been hearing his name from so many person.
but, just never get to ever his name inside my phone.
the last sms i ever receive from him was on christmas.
and i was fucking shock to see his name again.
but, that's only the barely one time.
i know, till now i never completely let go of him.
if not, i wouldn't still keep the things he left behind,
in the same place he used to keep his things.

boy, will you still be there for me again?.

2009-02-13T01:42:00.002+08:00

over at tan tock seng hospital just now.

the tag on my hand.

and, nt feeling very good mood.
family's having a big crisis now.
with mummy's factory force to close down.
sighs, i need a talk with someone soon.

anyways, found this photo somewhr.
it's at babyface i think.

i'm off to rest.
not feeling very well physically too.
sick.

2009-02-12T03:30:00.002+08:00

hey miss baoyun, i miss you!

i wanna meet you like soon, okay?. (:

monday afternoon, projecting with the girls.
got one quarter of the photos from miss felicia.
the rest of the photos are with miss avelyn.
gonna take from her tml. in thumbdrive hopefully.
and, will post it up again tml. (:

oh yes, mj with weisheng & company on tue night.
before that dinner & abit rounding.
mj's luck was quite good. got lucky i guess.
met up with jiajie & xian after mj session, in the morning.
for awhile, jiajie left. and xian came up my house.
jeremy came awhile after that. they were k-ing at my house.
and, i was gracefully sleeping from 10.30am - 2pm.
lols. but this two idiot came inside my room,
and keep disturb me to wake me up. LOL.
and they left around 2 plus after watching my sis's wedding video.
then i went around gossiping online with tiffany.
plus disturbing avelyn while she's doing her maths. HAHA.
after that i got abit frustrated with some woman's prob.
and decided to go slp. and i actually slp whole day.
it's 4am now. and, i guess i gonna spend 3 hrs doing eng brochure.
den, go prepare and head school. (:

2009-02-10T01:52:00.003+08:00

didnt go for class, again.
thanks to vivi, morning last min come menses,
made me spend 30 min figuring how to wrap for her.
and this is how funny she look right now.

and, about 10 i left house to cab to class,
but ended waited for nearly an hour.
trying all means to call, to flag, but, none okay!
i got fedup, and walked to sunplaza for breakfast.
yiksian came to look for me, acc me awhile,
and i decided to pamper myself and went for mani pedi.
and, i actually spend $80 in a morning on nails alone. -.-

meet up with feli @ khatid, made our way to school.
meet up with ave, tiffanny & benny,
supposingly to do MPO project.
but we girls ended up taking tons and tons of pic.
and the girls are suppose to send to me,
and i'm suppose to edit, and tag them @ facebook.
but, as usual, all dono disappear to where.
tiff and i was agree-ing on msn to scold them tml. HAHA.

meetup a short while with kenny just now.
could meet up earlier one, i fell asleep while using com.
and was awoke suddenly 1 hr later. -.-

anyways, thoughts for the day.

i need this right now. i know i can do it. (:

and and, my to-do list for next few days(perhaps weeks),
- complete mpo project by wed morning.
- complete eng brochure by fri morning.
- complete business maths CA 2 by sat morning.
- decide valentine's date.
- upload sis's wedding's video.
- burning several disc for sis.
- upload & edit the new photos.
- get started for revision final examination.
- plan & prepare ave darl's birthday on 21st.

ok, i can MIA for weeks from now till march. zzz

2009-02-08T22:34:00.002+08:00

spent my whole night doing a new skin.
out of boredom, as usual.
and i spent whole sunday rotting at home.
finally, i'm going out. and yes again,
in the middle of the night. -.-
meeting up with yiksian later,
gonna go bathe after this post.

was watching the video of sis's wedding,
will blog it later on if i got the time.
that video is super touching.

and i'm missing...

&

plus, think through alot of things this two days.
so, made a decision, and decided to stay happy.
cos, i know that,

XOXO.

2009-02-08T03:30:00.002+08:00

Valentine's less than a week.
who i'll spending with?. haven't decide yet. x(

anyways, after a week of crazy-ing nights.
finally for one day i'm at home.
i've been: wake up-go out-come home-sleep.
drink, mj, billiard, roundings, supper, etc.
anyways, grp assignments is due wed & fri.
gonna be another busy week.
i'm super bored right now,
so, off to find something to do,
since i hung up phone with melvin already.

2009-02-06T20:29:00.001+08:00

back dated photos feli sent.
kovan, projecting in progress.
after steamboat lunch @ bugis.

very busy this few days. didnt have time to use com.
XOXO.

2009-02-02T03:32:00.003+08:00

went to loyang with yiksian and the guy's name i cant rmb.
hahas. they're super amusing. lols.
wanted to head over to sengkang see ppl race,
but ended up we went for supper.
i went in the mid of struggling my eng business assignment.
got too frustrating and bored. so decided to go out.
and i realise i made a right choice,
cos, when i'm back, i suddenly knew what to write and do.
it's feb already, time to get serious with stuff.
and it takes alot of self discipline to achieve that.
btw, feli, when the hell are you sending me the pictures.

i came across this, and realise i've been reading this so often.

When she walks away from you mad - [Follow her]
When she stare's at your lips - [Kiss her]
When she pushes you or hit's you - [Grab her and don’t let go]
When she start's cursing at you - [Kiss her and tell her you love her]
When she's quiet - [Ask her what’s wrong]
When she ignore's you - [Give her your attention]
When she pulls away - [Pull her back]
When you see her at her worst - [Tell her she's beautiful]
When you see her start crying - [Just hold her and don’t say a word]
When you see her walking - [Sneak up and hug her waist from behind]
When she's scared - [Protect her]
When she lay's her head on your shoulder - [Tilt her head up and kiss her]
When she steal's your favorite hat - [Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When she tease's you - [Tease her back and make her laugh]
When she doesn’t answer for a long time - [reassure her that everything is okay]
When she looks at you with doubt - [Back yourself up with the TRUTH]
When she say's that she like's you - [she really does more than you could understand]
When she grab's at your hands - [Hold her's and play with her fingers]
When she bump's into you - [bump into her back and make her laugh]
When she tells you a secret - [keep it safe and untold]
When she looks at you in your eyes - [don’t look away until she does]
WHEN SHE MISSES YOU - [SHES HURTING INSIDE]
When you break her heart - [the pain NEVER really goes away]
When she says its over - [she STILL wants you to be hers]
When she repost this bulletin - [she wants you to read it]

- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything
- DON'T let her have the last word
- NEVER call her hot! Pretty and beautiful is soo much better
- Say you love her more than she could ever love you
- Argue that she is the best girl ever
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok don’t believe it, talk with her
- When she says she's sorry, she truly means it
- Because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up
- Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Tease her and let her tease you back
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid
- Give her the world
- Let her wear your clothes
- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
- Let her know she's important
- Kiss her in the pouring rain
&&
When she runs up at you crying,
the first thing you say is;
"Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

But, say is easier than doing it.
It's near impossible to find someone like this.

2009-01-29T06:41:00.002+08:00

night with dave and jackey was okay.
some heart-to-heart talks, jokes, etc.
slept through till early afternoon.
alot ppl came my house.
joey darlings, xian, ah bee, ming, cheryl,
verna, benny, weijie, eric, weini, amelia, wendy,
dave, avelyn darling, jackey, alex,
hanjie came with his gf, and two more friends.
desmond, wendy, and hanjie's another two friends.
come and go. cards came with diff ppl dealing.
supposingly i'm the one who lose.
but, thanks to jackey. i didnt have much losing/winning.
i learnt a new game call the si ki pi.
i didnt know how to play one.
but now, at least it's much clearer, but still, blur.
they play usual ban luck,
and watched them play texas holdem.
again, some lose over thousands,
some won over thousands.

school's later, i really scare i'll fall asleep.
but, i die die have to go, my attendace is rojak now.
didnt go 3 clubbings today, which is quite guai for me.
but, was drinking at home.
daddy open a 20 year old martell plus red wine.
it tastes fantastic. but i wasn't drunk at all.
more events coming up, and might have lesser time already.
gambling, outings, dates, school. mmmms.
and oh yeah, after my daughter's back from ave's house,
she's extraordinary guai. dono what happen.
and, i'm super sad + pissed off over one person.
and really have extra thoughts on what ppl has told me.
maybe, i really have to go on and think over.
which, i didnt really wanted to at all.
but, still. i still want to be more fair and give chances.
no photos still, i still haven charge my camera. zzz

2009-01-27T17:41:00.002+08:00

i've so many so many updates man!
till i dono what to blog first. HAHA.
anyways, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
i've one of my best new year this year. (:
mj session with my dad, third uncle, and zihui on cny eve,
and, i won alone! (:
next day head to mother's side. ban luck, and, i win!
reached sg in the night, head out to mj with ziming,
and, i win!
though i left in a rush last min, cos jason came to pick me up.
but still, overall, i win i win I WIN!
my luck is finally back man!
LOL. plus, did some last min shopping on cny eve,
and one shot i bought 9 sets of clothes. hahahas.
plus, i've my mani, pedi done, everything goes on so smoothly.
i guess, this year is a definitely a better year than last year.

mmms, i cant rmb what else to blog already man.
one bad thing happen is that, my camera went flat,
during the time when i need to use it. zzz
i forget to charge cos daddy took it without telling me. x(
and, my daughter is over at her god-mummy's (avelyn) house,
during the days i'm not in sg.
and, i can tell she enjoyed it man. LOL.
but still, i still have alot more days to enjoy.
tml, house gathering and everyone is coming up!
i'm so so so so excited man.
and, now, waiting for my mummy to finish cooking,
and, after dinner, meeting jackey and dave.
got more things to do man. blog agn sooooon~

2009-01-22T08:01:00.002+08:00

managed to finish my dumb individual assignment.
woke up at 4am to do it. well, i slept at 12am.
i'm fcuking tired now, and worst, with no cig, damn.
might be meeting xian brother later. might.
i dono, and anyways uhs, i've been losing temper,
and showing fcukup attitude to so many people.
and keep quarelling with different people.
dont come and fan me if you dowan be the next one.
cos ben xiao jie de xing qing bu shi hen piao liang.
(quoted and copy from avelyn, lol.)
feli still owing my photos and never send me. quick charbo.
i'm dying for them already. shit you, take so long. haha.
oh yah, i miss, very miss one person. x(

2009-01-21T06:04:00.002+08:00

LATE FOR SCHOOL AS USUAL.
went steamboat with the girls @ beach road.
then head to kovan to do projects.
dave picked me and avelyn darling at 8 plus pm.
dinner @ lavendar, frog porridge.
then, picked jackey(their friend) up after his work.
went party world, till 2am. drank alot.
they open red wine, plus 3 house pours.
was too vex and stressed up, so drink and sang.
went to babyface to further drink till 5.30am.
super excited to watch the man u soccer match,
cos they bet till super big.
but, jackey owe me a dinner cos i brought luck to him. (:
dont think i'm sleeping already,
gonna head for breakfast, then go sch tap my attendance.
than come home either nap or do project.
saturday no school, so, friday, clubbing night(:
photos are not with me yet, shall upload agns.
mood slightly got a lil lil better. but still super down.
perhaps more drink and club and sing will help.

2009-01-19T22:37:00.002+08:00

I CHANGED MY NUMBER.
get from me when u see my online msn bah.

still moodless. and, i cant skip school already.
dang.

2009-01-17T00:44:00.002+08:00

MOODLESS cum GUILTY.
why am i feeling so confused. damn.

put dave's aeroplane on zouk today.
put kelvin's aeroplane on movie today.
put ziming's & alex's aeroplane on mj today.
put chiawai's aeroplane on meeting out today.
put avelyn dar's & tiffany's aeroplane on jb trip today.
what the heck. what happen to me man.

was at weini this 10 year sistership's house whole day.
was pouring out all my sadness and sorrows.
almost cried, and i fell asleep at her house till 7 plus pm.
cab home, emo awhile, just took medicine for my insomnia,
hopefully it works so i can finally sleep after so many days of sleepless night.

2009-01-13T23:46:00.002+08:00

no pictures for the day. x(
anyways, i got up super late today,
rushed my preparations, and realise is almost 10am,
and i'm still at home, so decided not to go already.
avelyn more powerful, went in tap and left.
dave sent her to my house,
and sweetly, i've a small breakfast from him wors.
not bad uhs, know how to zuo ren uhs.
went for heavier breakfast with avelyn,
and we head back to my house.
talk awhile, nap awhile, sing awhile.

dinner with calvin, dave & avelyn.
not sure where is it, but it's at suntec,
tony roma's rib, i think.
their ribs are quite nice though.
i have a smoked steak & ribs. quite filling.
things go well in the beginning,
but ended quite badly, cos of someone's personal's stuff.
that's why i say i dont like guys.
but still, hope everything is still alright.
i'm drop dead tired. gonna go dreamland soon.

2009-01-12T22:53:00.003+08:00

reached school late as usual.
but manage to make it before 10am(:
cab back to yishun with avelyn and feli.
went sakura to have our lunch, delicious. (:

after which, cab over to my house,
k-ing sessions cum accessories shopping.
my mummy, don't know from where,
got so many accessories, it's really alot.
hundreds pairs of earrings, really is hundreds.
tell me its three for $10. so, i bought almost 40 pairs already.
the accessories are over @ my house,
so the girls came over to shun bian look at them.
have a great time k-ing with them.
avelyn darling can sing very well hors.
mai siao siao. LOL. but my darling is kind of sick?.
food poisoning really weakens her body so much.
dinner with calvin at dono where de japanese restaurant.
have a great time eating my sashimi. HAHA.
okay, i'm super tired. bedtime.